her thoughts

2005-03-21T21:06:00.000+08:00

either

illuminating-myst.net

or

crystalized-snow.net

which one sounds nicer?

2005-03-21T00:18:00.000+08:00

alright

it shows how little you people care for me

oh *sobz sobz*

blearg.. the above juz reeks with sarcasm

alright

i will be starting another blog

people who got pissed off by the frequency of me changing my blog

dont bother to ask me for links -not that you would ..but oh wells-

people dont care how much you know until they know how much you care

how true

i dont really care whether you know my link or not

it's the effort that counts

so yeah

in case you are wondering what am i rattling on

i guess

i would sae

NOTHING

except that

i will close this blog

and change my link soon/maybe

ohwells..

-peaces-

2005-03-14T10:24:00.000+08:00

i'm back.. after a few days' hiatus..

BENNY HINN'S CRUSADE

ONE WORD..GREAT .. MORE THAN GREAT

especially the first night.. when he prayed for the choir members only

the presence of God is(present tense cuz presence of God is ever present) moving so strongly..

i felt that i was lifted and then fell under the presence of God

some were filled with the holy laughter..

some juz teared in the presence of God

some juz simply got slain in the spirit

we hungered for more of His presence...

the second service...God touched us again..

and the last service..Paster prayed for us again..

this is the 1st time.. i encountered such a strong presence of God ..

it's the miracles..that showed the people that God is real..

it's that after the people experiencing the presence and the power of God and that they saw that God is real and that they gave their hearts to Jesus

i juz <3 God and His miracles..

i've learnt alot thru out this 3 days..

although i am tired physically..

i hope i will get baptised by paster benny himself..

God showed me a revelation..

during service yesterday..

i shall keep on asking..

if we ask and believe that it will happen... it will!

peace-

2005-03-12T02:24:00.000+08:00

it's when the Lord touches you all over again

it's when the glory of God just fall upon you

it's when the Holy Spirit comes upon you strongly

it's when you are filled with the Holy Laughter

it's when you cry out in the presence of God.. longing for more of Him

it's when you are hungry for more of Him and He satisfy your hunger

..

Benny Hinn's healing crusade is more than amazing

no words can describe the atmosphere and the presence of God

that is one encounter with God .. with the Holy Spirit that will stay etched in my heart

it's when without pastor laying hands on us and we just fell by the presence of God

the experience takes me to a greater height.. a greater level of knowing God in another way

i am so honoured to be in the choir

God.. anoint me.. use me as your vessel..

it's when your love is renewed again..

more stronger than before

it's when God touch you

it's when you wan to stay with Him in the presence forever

it's when i begin to serve the Lord more than ever

it's His presence that makes me run after Him

2005-03-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

it's when everytime you feel tired .. you are lethargic..

yet .. you chose to serve the Lord joyfully despite being tired

it's when you gain strength from serving the Lord

and the reward is?

the ever tangible presence of God..

i <3 Choir

i <3 usherin in the presence of God..

Benny Hinn's crusade later on..

singing for both nights..

challanging and fulfilling

had been out everyday this week..

last sun got choir prac @ church
mon got choir prac @ church
tue got choir prac @ church
wed got bible study @ bible house
thurs got choir rehearsal @ SIS
fri *the actual crusade*
sat *the actual crusade*
sun *servicee cum amazing race game*

the Joy of the Lord is my strength

peace out

2005-03-07T00:53:00.000+08:00

i just reached home!

i witnessed something very scary juz now!

i was taking the lift up to the mrt station..

i came out of the lift and i saw a man half-lying at the mrt doors

his legs were like half way out of the doors

den the doors started to close

i juz kept screaming

-i didnt know whether to help or not the help u see-

the man didnt move at all!!!

until the doors started to touch his legs

he den slowly pull in one of his legs

den he looked up and stared at me

the doors open again

den he lifted up the other leg

and then he laid down on the floor again

so drama !!!

that guy didnt look drunk

the way he stared at me was so scary (T.T)

aniwae..

choir prac was great

really psyched about Pastor Benny Hinn

i mean.. He's a reowned healing evangelist

being on the same stage as him makes me feel so honoured

aniwae..

there will be 1000 choir members -WOW-

im just part of that

i took photos with sister ally and sister bel!!!!

they are so nice x)

but sister bel will be leaving soon

will miss her leading us during choir prac

heh..

aniwae..

will have more practices tml , tue and thurs in SIS

haha..

busy busy week

tight on finances

i spent all my pay!

i told God from today on.. i will be a good steward

will not spend money recklessly(?)

so God will provide and see me thru this month

2005-03-03T00:35:00.000+08:00

Your Brain is 60.00% Female, 40.00% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

aniwae..

i think i'll probably get into innova

if God's willing

x )

in ani case

mass comm is good for me too

2005-03-01T00:39:00.000+08:00

ok.. i noe you people wans to know my results =X

well.. although i didnt get what i expected to get..but surprisely.. i handled my emotions quite well..

i guess.. i had grown more in the Lord

God is good.. all the time..

here's a flash back to last year when i was taking my Os..

i fell sick during the last 4 days of my Os

which i had to take physics , chemistry , accounts and a math

i couldnt take injections cuz it will put me to slp immediately

so i went to take the exams with fever/stomach flu/headache

i had to praise God cuz.. i passed all the subjects..except a math

=X

im guilty of not studying for amath

BUT

i improved for all my subjects

so now.. the long awaited results

english : A2
chinese : A2
combined humans : A2
e math : B3 *where is my A?*
accounts : C5
chemistry : C5
physics : C6
a math : D7

L1R5 : 19
L1R4 : 14

here's my prelims results

english : B4
chinese : B3
combined humans : B3/4
e math : B4
accounts : C6
chemistry : C6
physics : E8
a math: F9

it's not the results that matters.. it's the improvements i've made

and even i got back my results

dearest Mr S still wun stop his attacks on me..

my relatives complained why i got such lousy marks

why i dont even have an A1

my answer for them?

you think easy you go take the exams lor.. you score even 1 A1 i treat you all dinner

=X

i decided not to get put down by their comments

God see my improvements..

He knows i did my best to glorify Him in my results

what my relatives are saying are plain crap

they just wan to prevent me from going to church

ALL THE MORE I WILL GO

cuz i WILL NOT leave the house of God juz becuz of their few words

i do not please men.. i please God

will seek God for directions to where i will go

but.. i hope God speaks to me real soon

cuz i only got 1 week to register =X

aniwae.. i am glad to bless people with things they wan

it;s better to give den to receive

amen?

2005-02-28T12:30:00.000+08:00

izzit me or izzit that the time pass by ultra slowly today?

can someone die over/from anxiety?

started to get cold feet...

butterflies in the stomach..

i nid to draw from God..

His strength..

this is what i will do today

after i get my results

i wun open it

until im out of school

-that gives the excuse of not telling my results to people who ask-

i will be meeting dinah and sister baolian

to get a present for someone

i will only open my results

after i shopped for her present

countdown: less than 2 hours

GOD , i nid Your blessings

-peaceout-

2005-02-27T23:16:00.000+08:00

i dreaded the thought of my principal talking nonstop for 1 hour tml..

more waiting

being in the kingdom of God is never easy

when u juz growing stronger and meditating on His words

spiritual attacks come

it came in various forms..

doubts .. past failures

but greater is He who is in us than he who is in the world

results tml..

guyz.. pray for me yeah?

here's a song i hope i can apply to myself

--

Whatever my eyes can see
Lord you have given to me
Whatever i ask in your name
You have given too
Whatever my hands can touch
Lord you have made into much
Wherever i go in your name
I go with you

I have the substance of the things i hope for
Proof of the things unseen
I believe in the power that you breathe on me
I have the substance of the things i hope for
Proof of the things unseen
Gonna shout the walls down as i pray

We fight the fight of faith
Taking ground at your command
We fight the fight of faith
Upon the solid rock we stand
We fight the fight of faith
Your living word is in our hands
We fight the fight of faith

We desire your fire can see your dream
Proclaim your name and every knee shall bow

--

2005-02-24T23:56:00.000+08:00

results will be released on monday

crap.. cheated my feelings..

all along i tht it's on friday due to some certain sources that claimed to be reliable

but nonetheless..

it's gonna come

thank you to those who have been praying for me

there is POWER in agreement =X

i believe God for good results..

yeah..

jc or poly..

not really decided..

praying for a direction..

conference was great!

am really glad i came to the last night lor

although have to sit at the lobby..

hearing God's words are enough for me..

wun update much

2005-02-24T00:24:00.000+08:00

was hit by God's revelation during the conference..

we are ALL CALLED to be missionaries!

the problem is.. how to be a good one? (if we wan to be 1 , we better be a good one rite?)

things in my life are going to be changed drastically

you can give without loving , but you can never love without giving..

i nid a BIGGER capacity to contain people in my life

when God speaks.. i nid to obey.. thousands of souls are in my hands..i'm gonna be accountable for them

the mission field starts right outside of church..

we are called to preach to the Gentiles

Gentiles (hebrew) = nations (english)

i got no more time to waste..

was watching the "Benny Hinn's" clip while waiting for the conference to start

was touched by the whole clip..

it is amazing that God do wonderful miracles for us..

all we have to do is to believe

my results are coming on out friday..

has been under lots of spiritual attacks recently

but

greater is He who is in us than he who is in the world

PTL!

i noe i will surely do better this time den my prelims (we go from glory to glory , strength to strength)

but..

i am specific to what i wan

and i noe my God loves to make the impossible possible

so

i am prepared to be WOW by my own result

managing my expectations well..

i dont wan a recap of what happen during my chinese Os

i dun wan to lose the faith that i've found back..

and whatever i get

is whatever God wans me to get

Rejoice alwayz .. giving thanks to the Lord for this is the will of me in Christ Jesus

i will go where He wans me to

obedience is very important

right ? (i could hear lots of Amens)

Delight yourself in the Lord
And He shall give the desires of your heart

2005-02-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

lots of things happened during this post..

-told gab about the singpass.. she told me about CPF..suddenly realized i've threw away my singpass 2 years agao..panicked..trying not to freak out..look at solution at the website.. realized i could reset singpass and get new singpass..calm-ed down..goin CDC tomorrow to apply.. msg-ed ning to tell her..she called me.. asked me to apply.. due to the rule of NO THIRD PARTY .. i cannot do that for her.. she flying off to Sydney tml morning..panicked for her again .. she sae ask her mum to try...relax-ed abit.. came to blog again-

rite.. to make up for lost time.. i shall do a truncated post..

fri::

work in the morning

missed choir practice

had cellgroup meeting

--

sat::

woke up at 8 .. went to church at 10 .. helping out in children's church

saw alot of kids x)

so cute!

so happy can help out in children's church

went to meet my choir IC helper after that..

den went to meet my cellgroup members to book seats

so excited that PASTOR SUN WAS LEADING FOR OUR SERVICE

worship was GREAT! presence of God was there!

Pastor preached a GREAT msg

went for service 3 again

discipleship at 9.30pm..

went out of church around 10.30pm

reached home around 12am

---
sunday:

woke up at 7am..went to church at 8am..

missed service 4.. so went to cafe

eat .. drink .. play

den went to meet ex-6J people to go ex form teacher's house

being anti-social.. i only talked to selected few

went home instead of eating with them

cuz too tired

manager asked me to work tonight

too tired to work

--

RENEW MY LIFE
Key: D
Worship

RENEW MY LIFE
LORD JESUS
I NEVER WANT TO BE THE SAME

RENEW MY LIFE
LORD JESUS
PLACE THIS HEART INSIDE OF ME

IN MY LIFE AND THOUGHTS
THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS
THAT NEED THE CHANGE
THAT ONLY YOUR LOVE CAN BRING
AND I NEED TO BE TRANSFORMED
INTO YOUR LIKENESS, O LORD
CHANGE THIS HEART INSIDE OF ME

--

Matt 22:37-40

Jesus said to him,"You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, and with all your mind."
"This is the first and great commandment."
"And the second is like it:'You shall love your neighbour as yourself.' "
"On these two commanments hang all the Law and the Prophets."

Jesus loves the sinners... He hates their sins..

i dislike big time liars

it's christians like her makes people think wrongly about christianity

oh pardon me.. if that seems to serious

but if a christian was revolted by the actions..i dont see why an unchurch wont

Jesus said .. The truth shall set you free..

-You are trapping others and yourself-

--

am i wrong to think this way ?

i think.. i am too empathetic..

2005-02-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

Cry - Written by Bro KC

LOST IN YOU ALONE
IS WHERE I WANNA BE
TO HEAR YOUR VOICE
SOFTLY IN MY EAR
YOU WHISPER WORDS TO ME
THAT I AM YOURS

CANT LIVE A DAY
WITHOUT YOUR PRESENCE
CLOSER TO YOU
I WANNA BE

MY SOUL CRIES OUT
FOR MORE OF YOU MY LORD
MY PORTION AND HOPE
I CLOSE MY EYES
AND FEEL YOU NEAR
THERE'S NOBODY ELSE
THAT CAN TAKE YOUR PLACE
IN MY HEART

--

Your Word - City Harvest Church (i dunno who wrote it)

YOUR WORD
IS A LAMP UNTO MY FEET
LIGHT UNTO MY PATH
MY LIVING COUNSEL

YOUR VOICE
IS LIKE THE MIGHTY WIND
OPENS UP THE SEA
SHAKES THE HEAVENS

YOUR TRUH
ABIDE WITHIN MY HEART
MY FAITH AND HOPE IS FOUND IN YOU

YOU HOLd MY WORLD
BY THE POWER OF YOUR WORD
YOU ARE THE TREASURE I SEARCH
ALL MY PRAISES YOU DESERVE
I SET MY HEART
ON THE THINGS ABOVE
YOU ARE THE ONE THAT I LOVE
I GIVE MY HEART AND ALL TO YOU

STAND UPON YOUR WORD
WALK IN TRUTH AND LOVE
I TRUST IN YOU

---

THANK GOD for His promises
THANK GOD for supplying all my NEEDS

2005-02-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

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Hey guys.. received letters recently from the Ministry of Education (MOE) inviting you to attend a teaching recruitment seminar??

Hmm.. this MAY hint something about your O Levels results. i'm not really sure.

An article spotted on Today Newspaper reported something about the letter from MOE. Does recieving the letter mean you have a L1R5 of around 17 points for O levels? One of my friends told me about this and i think it may interest you guys too. In fact, I think most of the people in the school are talking about this now(at least in my class it is).

I did some research and i found the article on the internet.

Go to http://www.todayonline.com/articles/34053.asp to view the article.

---

so .. since i never receive ani letters..

that means i can less than 17 for my L1R5

-think positively-

and.. God promise that He WILL do exceedingly abundantly above all we think or ask..

so ..

yeah

x)

i think positively..

2005-02-15T18:32:00.000+08:00

i requested to go home an hour earlier

basically becuz my eye is abit swollen and painful ..

and of cuz.. im dead beat..

babies make my day brighter

was working on sunday night.. there's this cute little boy in front of us

i couldnt resist smiling at him

both jona and i were like "ooooh .. the baby so cute" that kinda expression

and guess what?

the cute little thing winked at us

my goodness.. SO SWEET AND CUTE

and well..

yesterday .. there's another cute little baby boy at the mirror there

i smiled at him through the mirror

that little boy juz waved back

AHA!

cute thing eh?

he waved goodbye too -well... his mum waved for him-

haha

i love babies tt behave well -who doesnt-

whiny kids juz drive me up the wall

--

although i've never been in a relationship before

i know well enough from tv dramas that

people forcing couples to break off are very despicable

-sighs-

what kind of world are we living in?

a fallen one..

-sighs-

2005-02-15T00:11:00.000+08:00

Your EQ is

133

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!

51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.

71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.

91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.

111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

2005-02-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

great v day -sarcasm-

i got knocked by chris during work

now my left eye is hurting

-sighs-

cant make it to choir prac

tired

have to work tml.. 10am - 6 pm

i think i will be exhausted...

2005-02-14T14:01:00.000+08:00

my heart skipped a beat

i read from someone's blog saying that O's results will be release on 19 feb .. or somewhere near there

it's even nearer than what some other people are saying

some say 25th some say 28th

i bind the spirit of doubt and fear

2 tim 1 : 7
"For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. "

I am able to do well because God says I am the head not the tail , Above and never beneath..

I know i will definately get better results than what i've alreadi gotten for prelims .. which means i will get very good results..

so i shall not worry.. for anithing that is not of faith is sin

so i shall continue to meditate on God's words .. i shall not waver ..

i wanted to share this verse

Eph 3:20
"Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us"

my dear friends.. God hears our prayers..when we confess it .. even when we think of it.. God hears it

have a positive mindset .. How can God work miracles when we keep having negative thoughts?

Pro 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your path."

let that verse not only serve as a reminder, let it be rooted in our heart and mind.

1 thess 5:16-18
"Rejoice alwayz, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you."

2005-02-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

why it alwayz happen to me?

now everyone knows about it

-sighs-

well.. aniwae.. had a great time for service

new song this week.. sung by brother mark

nice and very groovy praise song

will put up the lyrics when im not in -lazy- mood

tml's valentine's dae

so i wish everyone

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

yeah..

i am working tml night

drop by to eat

valentine's day special

2005-02-12T01:50:00.000+08:00

constantine is nice

so nice

keanu reeves is drop dead sexy + charming + handsome

<3

quite tired now

going to slp soon..

so yeah..

just blog to sae

how much i <3 keanu reeves

x)

2005-02-11T10:50:00.000+08:00

Artist:Ryan Cabrera
Album:Take It All Away
Title:True

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think
I don't look
But deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you

I'm weak
It's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

You don't know
What you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak
It's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try, anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true

I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try, anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true

i love that song <3<3<3<3<3

2005-02-11T10:09:00.000+08:00

watching constantine with my cellgroup members today!!!

catching the 1050pm show cuz both millie and i have to work

yesterday .. a group of them came over my house to watch mulan

in the end.. millie and i went in my parent's room to watch windstruck

=X

valentine's day mood is getting into everyone

even friendster *rolled my eyes*

being dateless =X , i have to work on valentine's day

which is not a bad thing

instead of spending money

i earn money

haha..

alright.. going to bugis later to shop

so yeah..

everyone

take care

2005-02-10T09:39:00.000+08:00

i hate it when im deprived of peaceful sleep..

that "tong-tong-chang" noises are getting on my nerves

i dislike walking around with panda-like eyes

but ..

that's exactly my look now

-sighs-

mummy bringing me to buy clothes -again?-

i rather she buys the creative muvo player for me =X

since both amounts to the same.. maybe more if she chose to buy clothes for me

i've been ranting non-stop..

it's bad .. to rant all the time during CNY

i went to JaLan KaYu yesterday at 9pm

there's no place to park the car

the place was so crowded that you even wonder whether the roti prata was free

we waited for 1 hour before the food arrived..

i am amazed by my mental strength

i can sit there for like 2 hours withstanding smoke blowing into my face by the fellow patrons around

oh yeah!

i saw bro justin when our food just arrived

LoLx

when we left after buying take-aways..

his still haven arrive

haha..

we waited for 1hr

i think his cellgroup prolly waited for more than 1 hr

i dunno why am i blogging all this nonsense

killing time before the visiting starts again?

-tired-

2005-02-07T19:14:00.000+08:00

i cannot take it when people take me as their vending machine ALL THE TIME.

i cannot take it when people blow their top at me when i merely ask them a question

the thing that i cant take the most is that people contradicting themselves and think that it's the other person that is..

that's what i call.. self-denial

stop deceiving yourself..

you noe who you are

there's a limit in tolarating you

im afraid

you're over that limit

2005-02-06T17:33:00.000+08:00

WOAH.. POWERFUL WEEKEND @ CHURCH -smilez-

Pastor John Bevere is GOOD -thumbs up and up and up-

the weekend kicked off with a great praise and worship .. we introduced the new song "CRY" and it was really great.. the presence of God was strong.. the whole service was filled with excitement..

the best of all was before the preaching start.. We were singing "everything's alright" and Bro Mark did a rap.. i only managed to catch that first stanza -i noe.. i lousy at catching lyrics-

here's part of it::

Yo , Everybody Come on
Check it out and See
Get up , and take an awesome ride with G-O-D

--

yeah .. i think That's the lyrics lah..

if i can get the song.. i wil post it alright -smilez-

aniwae..

Pastor preached about "Drawing Near to God"

it's REALLY REALLY POWERFUL..

i definately recommends His book "Drawing NEar"

after hearing part of it from service...

i went for 3 services.. i wanted to go for 5 services..

but becuz i have to accompany my cellgroup member to make up cell .. so i only attended 3

and i like the way Pastor John Bevere preaches..

IT IS WAY COOL!

oright...

backtracked a little.

went for choir prac on fri..

Sis Bel taught us an old song..

---

When i look into Your Holiness
When i gaze into Your Loveliness
When all things that surround me
Become shadows in the light of You

When i found the joy of reaching Your heart
when my will becomes enthroned with Your love
when all things that surround me
become shadows in the light of You

I worship You
I worship You
The reason i live , is to worship You

--

beautiful song with a personal touch

OH YEAH!

AM SO BLESSED BY MY DEAREST MS HEE -grinning-

she juz blessed me with a Hillsong Album

-lots of hugs and kisses to her-

my weekend has never been so exciting

and i believe.. the excitement will keep on growing

let the fire within me burn stronger and stronger each time

and i hope your's too

amen?

2005-02-04T09:57:00.000+08:00

why do people like to flame others at their tagboards?

does it give them certain joy in posting malicious comment?

-i dont understand.. maybe becuz.. i dont scoop that low in their level =P-

--

relationship is a complicated thing

esp when a third party enters the picture.. forcing the couple to break off

the impt word here is force..

but .. the thing is.. isnt it violating someone else's life?

no matter how much you think it is good for the person to break off..

isnt there a choice for the person herself/himself ?

after all.. it's her/his own life

-i dont understand-

--

when you noe that it's wrong in your head.. will you follow what it's right in your heart?

2005-02-02T02:59:00.000+08:00

i went to bed at 10 last night

i woke up at 2am today , sneezing like mad .

wah piang!

i slping still got people wan to curse me .. xP

whoever curses the man/woman of God , the curse shall rebound.. muahahahahhahahahaha

oh right!

i came online to play

but i found nothing to play

and the thing is..

i got work at 11 am tml

that's not the end

i got bible study until 8pm

that's great and

i got choir practice which will prolly ends around 10+pm

so now...

what am i doing here? -am i in self-denial?-

i should get my sleepyhead into bed

-sighs-

but i'm too bored to do that -strange though-

since i spent almost all my pay

i left $20 to last me for the whole mth of FEB *thank God feb only got 28 days and CNY is juz round the corner*

adult fare still sucks ..

2005-02-01T18:36:00.000+08:00

JC JOKES ::

Message: Q: How many RJC students
does
it take to
change a lightbulb??
A: 4 whole faculties. One fac to design
the
new bulb,one fac to test it out, one fac to
market
it and
one guy to write a stupid Email about
lightbulbs.

Q: How many HCJC students does it take
to
change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school.....to compete with
RJC.........

Q: How many VJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school.......one to screw it
in and
the rest to cheer and wave flags and
banners to give him/her support.

Q: How many NJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb??
A: NO LIGHT STILL CAN STUDY!!!!!

Q: How many AJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb??
A: They're too busy trying to be one of the
top 5 JCs...

Q: How many ACJC students does it take
to
change lightbulb??
A: None......they use all their money to
employ YJC to do it for them.

Q: How many YJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb??
A: None.....only one teacher to tell them
what a lightbulb is in the first place and to
demonstrate (how do you think they're
able to
change it for AC?)

Q: How many CJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb??
A: They'd prefer it darker..........
(hmmm...*raise eyebrow*)......

Q: How many JJC students does it take to
change a lightbulb??
A: None......Their physics is so bad that
they
make the male teacher cry.....

Q: How many TPJC students does it take
to
change a lightbulb??
A: Would they bother??

Q: How many MJC students does it take
to
change a lightbulb?
A: None.They're too busy studying. trying
not
to
get expelled..

Q: How many SAJC students does it take
to
change a lightbulb??
A: None.....they believe in praying for it.

Q: How many NYJC students does it take
to
change a lightbulb??
A: None.....they are still using oil lamps.

Q: How many SRJC students does it take
to
change a lightbulb??
A: Huh, wat litebarb ...

Q: How many IJC students does it take to change a
lightbulb??
A: None. They're more worried about the
about-to-drop-fans in the learning studios instead.

Q: Dun you guys wonder who wrote this?
A: MI!

Q: How many MI students does it take to
change the lightbulb?
A: None. They think they are very bright
already

---

i bought this very nice smelling strawberry shower foam..

haha..

it's nice..

2005-02-01T08:47:00.000+08:00

i went out at 10 am... reached home at 11+ pm..

GOSH!

i did more than 12 hours of walking..

and i spent $300+..

and there's still somemore clothes that i haven buy

have yet to buy my jacket , shoes and bag

most imptly..

my bible!

i hope my next mth pay is enough

im gonna work more!!!!

finally got my windstruck ost from korkor

NICE!!!

i <3 korean stuff x)

2005-01-31T01:13:00.000+08:00

im happy

becuz i will see certain someone for almost every week for a few mths

no idea what im talking about?

too bad =X

haha.. choir prac cum appreciation night was fun!!!

did lots of funny warming up exercises..

we got a new bottle with the logo .. chc vocals

heh..

now i can have a bottle of my own

to show my identity

LOLX!!

am real tired

shopping spree at 10 am

haha..

im a happy girl

x)

anyway.. there's something wrong with my right eye..

it's so painful

i dunno why

I'll pray for God's healing

heh..

--

create in me .. a new heart.. one that follows You

a heart after you - written by bro mark and sis caroline

nice nice song!

i am goin to learn how to play on guitar

oh yeah!

sis bel sae that we mite be recording an album in april..

so we are singing all these songs written by bro KC , bro Mark , sis caroline and maybe even the songs written by our choir members

so exciting!

the last album that our church recorded was like in 2001..

so psyched for this!

many people are going to be blessed !

Im gonna be a worshipper.. that worships God in spirit and in truth..

amen!

2005-01-30T13:30:00.000+08:00

i felt rejected by my friends..

im so depressed

no one wan to accompany to go shopping today

-whines-

LOLX!!!!

have to go choir appreciation night today

but.. i .. dun even know what song my group has written

becuz of the changes in the grouping..

i changed my group

AGAIN!

Im now hungry and alone and bored

i wan to eat pasta!

no one accompany me..

all my friends dunno today why all so busy...

too busy to let me squeeze into their schedule today

-sighs-

i came here to rant ..

to kill the boredom..

but..

the end result?

im even more bored and sianz =X

2005-01-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

pastor preached a series of powerful messages at the beginning of this year

as usual .. today is no exception

pastor talked about the 4 direction of faith that we should have!

Dont restrict God .. Dont limit God .. most imptly .. if we can conceive the idea there is no reason why we should receive it..

the 4 direction of faith ::

1) Height :: Have faith in God

rem.. faith is a choice.. We dont need faith for something we can see.. but we NEED faith for something we cannot see..

believers of God are blessed because they have faith to believe what they cannot see..

Limitation .. a word that we should impose on God..

rem it's one thing to get out of the place of limitation , another to get limitation out of your mind!!!

Ps 78:40-41

our negativity will hinder the promises of God!

dont be negative.. never ever limit GOD!!

2) Depth :: Have faith in Yourself

eph 2 :10
ps 139:14

We alwayz travel in the direction of your mental image
anything we act on ..we reinforce

we dont need to prove to anyone to show that we have the ability

to know who we are in Christ .. that is the ultimate security

3) Width :: Have faith in others

God believe in US! Even before we knew Jesus.. Jesus died on the cross for us.. knowing that one day we will go into the kingdom of God

if God have faith in other people.. we should likewise too have faith in OTHERS

and of cuz.. last but not least

4) Length :: Have faith in your future

faith is walking in obedience of what God directs you in

pro 3: 5 - 6

--

aniwae.. after service.. went to jurong point with mummy..

wah piangz!

the place is like packed with people

felt like fainting when i saw the crowd

-sighs-

goin shopping tml..

haha.. i didnt see what i wanted to buy at jurong point mahz

aniwae..

adult fare is like bad ..

i juz topped up like $30 the week before..

and now it's low in credit again

=~~

God will provide ..

heeeeeeee

difference between a "want" and a "need"

a "want" is an option for God to bless us

a "need" is an obligation whereby God has to bless me *Thus says the Lord , i shall supply all your NEEDS*

2005-01-29T00:06:00.000+08:00

here's a few courses im interested in..

Diploma in New Media (RP)
Diploma in Multimedia Computing (NP)
Diploma in Multimedia InfoComm (NYP)
Diploma in Multimedia Technology (SP)
Diploma in Interactive Media Design (TP)

so now.. which school should i choose?

2005-01-28T16:55:00.000+08:00

I AM DYING TO GO SHOPPING!!!!!!!!

but i must wait for 31 jan..

haha.. thank God Yasmine is able to replace me on monday =)

so .. gab and i will be shopping from 11 am - 8 or 9 plus

hehe....

so many things i wanna buy...

here's my shopping list ::
* levi's jeans
* samuel and kevin's shirt
* b.u.m. equipment skirt
* roxy skirt
* op shirt
* bag for korkor
* present for daryl
* gab's billabong/op skirt
* redearth eyeshadow
* topshop formal shirt
* new shoes
* roxy/billabong wallet
* puremilk jacket/shirt

i hope my pay is enough =P

and chinese new year is juz round the corner

i hope i will be able to get mp3 player next month

it has been SO SO SO LONG since i last went shoppin

anticipating

heh

2005-01-28T00:13:00.000+08:00

nice song..

I CAN SEE THE GLORY OF THE LORD
Key: E
Worship

I CAN SEE THE GLORY OF THE LORD
FALLING FROM HEAVEN, FALLING A ROUND ME
I CAN HEAR THE CALLING OF THE LORD
DRAWING ME CLOSER INTO ETERNITY

HOLY GHOST BREATHE UPON ME
INTO MY SOUL
FILL ME WITH GLORY
ALL MY LIFE I WANT TO SING
PRAISES TO YOU
HERE IN YOUR SANCTUARY

2005-01-27T18:01:00.000+08:00

You Are the Achiever

3

You're confident and competent - with a lot of energy.

Eager to reach your goals, you are aambitious and competitive.

You are good at movtivating yourself and motivating others.

You're also a charmer, with a great sense of humor.

What number are you?

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

2005-01-27T17:24:00.000+08:00

someone from the kitchen asked me..

(uncle) : "Xiao mei! No school today?"

(me) : "Uncle.. i waiting for results lah.."

(full-time cook , i dunno the name.. something choo): "How's work?"

(me): *shrugs* "Okie okie lor.."

(cook): "Aiyah.. the people working here are all uncles .."

(me) : " Yeah lor ..."

aniwae.. a few customers asked me the same question when i served them.

(customers) : " Wah.. You skipped sch today aR? You student right?" -some sort similar-

(me): " I waiting for Os results.. I am 17 this year.."

the common/typical look they gave me..

*Eyes wide open.. jaws dropped..*

yeah.. thanks alot..

if people keep calling me " XIAO MEI AR" ..

i will forever look like im juz 14 or 15

aniwae.. i juz bought two cakes for tanya's and xena's birthday

cellgroup later..

going shopping with mommy on sat

going shopping with gabbie darling and ning dear on 31/01 or 1/02 or 2/02

the date is not yet confirmed

so my darling and dear

CONFIRM WITH ME LAHX..

aniwae..

i still owe daryl's birthday present

so daryl.. if u happen to see me.. pls tell me what you wan before i went for my shopping spree

and i still owe gab's and my brother's present

awwwwwww

im so bad =X

2005-01-26T22:23:00.000+08:00

recently.. i noticed a certain trend..

people like to stare at me..

and i came up with a few reasons why they do that

1) either i am too ugly
2) or i've horns growing on my head
3) or i am too pretty

i reckon is that i suddenly turn too pretty =X

LoLx..

aniwae.. went for bible study..

lixuan waited 1/2 hr for me =X

i felt so guilty.. so i helped her carry her bag

shan't tell the whole situation.. too funny..

-embarrassed-

aniwae.. went to plaza sing to eat..

i was leaning out on the escalator..

and i banged on that plastic thing that was hanging along the way

so many embarrassing things happened to me today

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

so shy =X

anywae.. my manager told me i will be working on valentine's day

that's unfair!

but since all my colleagues got date..

i shall be the kind soul

haha...

shall not blog the usual mundane matters

real tired

blog soon...

2005-01-23T09:11:00.000+08:00

Listening to : I think of you - Tata Young

When I'm down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I'm sad and confused

When it all gets turned around and 'round
I can't seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I've believed in seems untrue
All I have to do

(chorus)
Is think of you
I think of you and it's gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you
I think of you and I'm strong
And I know I can go on
It's like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you

Now I know what love means
And whatever life may hold for me
Through the fire
Through the rain I believe

Cause there's nothing I can't bear
Knowing that you will be there
If I fall I won't break
Through it all I'll make it through
Cause all I have to do

(chorus)

And when I think I'm all alone
I can't see the way to go
Lost in the rain of my own tears
To wash away the pain and fear

(chorus)

For the good times and the bad times
I just think of you
Cause you know you get the best of me
I just think of you

--

i am so addicted to this song .. although it's not gospel music .. but somehow i felt that the lyrics can relate to God

i just felt that this is what i need to do .. for the good times and the bad times .. i should think of God.. and knowing that He's there for me and there's really nothing i couldnt bear cuz He's there for me .. no matter how big a problem .. think of God .. pray to God.. and it's gone.. it's like He chase away the storm..

i was juz thinking about what sis bao lian said.. when i faces problem.. i break down and cry .. instead of relying on God's strength.. i relied on my own.. i fail to trust in God in times of problems.. and that's my weakness

I'm weak but He's strong.. i should learn to lean on Him .. For God is extra extra near those who have a broken heart

2005-01-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

i m so sorry dear all regular readers..

for my failure to update my blog for a few days..

=X

aniwae.. i was quite busy this few days..

i am working every morning - that's explains the dark rings around my eyes-

and i have bible study.. cellgroup meetings and choir practices

im a busy girl ><

haha.. aniwae..

today at work was pretty bad

i got BLAMED 4 times for stuffs which i didnt do..

dun wish to mention any..

but today is a bad day

but tml is goin to be better ..

cuz we go from glory to glory .. strength to strength

aniwae.. updates on my work..

i accidentally poured fish and chips over one customer..

thank God that person did not scold me or anithing..

or i will cry =X

cuz i was like.. getting scolded for nothing today lor

customer dun wan onions.-the chopped one- i keyed in no onions.

kana the chef's scoldings..

den manager cleared table never throw away the rubbish

i kana the chef's scoldings

the chef purposely wan me to get him a jug of ice and den told me he was kidding with me

i got "scolded" by my manager

i felt so unjust !

but never mind.. i practice forgiving and forgetting

tml's a new day..

oh yeah.. there's this guy .. that alwayz come and eat pasta de lor

for 1 week liao.. everyday lehx..

somemore.. the first day he came.. he came in in the afternoon.. den in the evening

machiam a bit siao =X

our food got so nice mehx?

alright.. enough rantings about work

went for make up cellgroup today

first impression was that Bro Adrian is a very fierce man =X

but aniwae.. today's msg struck something in me

diligence..

am i diligent in seeking God?

Although God's love is unconditional.. His blessings are not

it depends on how much we want it..

or rather..

when we pray for something

is it A NEED or A WANT?

if it is A WANT.. we gave God the options of choosing whether to bless us or not

but if it is A NEED..God has the obligations to fulfill our needs

for thus says the Lord .. i shall satisfy all your NEEDS

be diligent .. SEEK after God

that's what i would do..

not stop unless i feel the presence of God..

i should have tt kind of perserverance

amen? =D

2005-01-18T22:24:00.000+08:00

had this special moments where God speaks to us..

out of nowhere.. there's this still small voice that spoke to you

God is speaking to me..

My Child.. Why do you lack of faith? Why let fear consume you? Where's the childlike faith that you used to have?

i cannot deny.. i have faltered along my walk with the Lord..

i cannot deny indeed.. i have thoughts of backsliding..

but yet everytime.. something pulled me back

though i noe i may be not as sensitive to the Holy Spirit as i used to ..

but somehow i guess.. the spirit is reminding me.. God is alwayz there for me..

i lacked the faith to trust Him in my results.. i guess..

i let others' emotions affect me...

God has not given us the spirit of fear.. but of love , power and a sound mind..

i often think.. since God sae we are the head and not the tail..

how come i could get B3 for my chinese *yes yes.. i am still sore over my chinese result*

i often think about the promises of God.. and how it doesnt apply to me..

but i guess.. i overlooked one verse..

God's ways are higher than ours.. His thoughts are higher than ours.

i guess.. with my simple mind i cannot understand His plans for me..

i let my emotions overtook my faith..

so now..

God spoke..

I need to get back the faith..

i have to pull myself back everytime i felt like goin the other way..

The path of a righteous is directed by the Lord

Pro 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
Lean not on your own understanding
In all your ways , acknowledge Him
And He shall direct your path

how true..

i claim that verse as MY VERSE =X

2005-01-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

Listening to : Jamelia - superstar

I don't know what it is
that makes me feel like this
i don't know who you are
but you must be some kind of superstar

----

98 degrees - My Everything

The loneliness of nights alone
The search for strength to carry on
My ever hope has seemed to die
My eyes had no more tears to cry
Then like the sun shined from up above
You surrounded me with your endless love

You are my everything
Nothing your heart won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Now all my hopes and all my dreams are suddenly reality
You've opened up my love to feel
A kind of love that's truly real
A guiding light that'll never fade
There's not a thing inlife that I would ever trade
For the love you give it won't let go
I hope you'll always know

Your my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
the only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray, On bended knee
That you will always be, My everything

You're the breath of life in me
The only one that sets me free,
And you have made my soul complete
For all time (for all time)

Your my everything (Your my everything)
Nothing your love won't bring (nothing your love won't bring)
My life is yours alone (alone)
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through (Your spirit pulls me through)
When nothing else will do (when nothing else will do)
Every night I pray (I pray)
On bended knee (on my knee)
That you will always be, My everything

Your my everything (Your my everything)
Nothing your love won't bring (nothing your love won't bring)
My life is yours alone (alone)
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through (Your spirit pulls me through)
When nothing else will do (when nothing else will do)
Every night I pray (I pray)
On bended knee (on my knee)
That you will always be, My everything

Every night I pray, down on bended knee
That you will always be
My everything, oh my everything

--

i dunno why... but i got a feeling it's you

2005-01-16T01:31:00.000+08:00

learnt to play canon in d on guitar =D

i'm a happy girl

my boyfriend HAVE to know how to play canon in d on piano

or else -hiak hiak-

musically inclined is a plus

sounds familiar

*shrugs*

haha..

aniwae..

new song today

pretty rock and cool

wore contact lens

had this feeling that it mite drop out anitime

but it didnt

so thank God

2005-01-15T09:12:00.000+08:00

there's this weird music comin out of nowhere

it was there since 7am in the morning

that is the cause of why i woke up early

i juz feel like shoutin

SHUT UP LAH

discreetly

but i guess..

i will hold it..

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

2005-01-15T08:20:00.000+08:00

i dreamt of a man teaching me how to wear contact lens

wth?!

somemore that man is someone i never met before.. sometimes i wonder.. how come my brain can conjure such a strange image =X

anywae.. aries tried teaching me how to wear contact lens yesterday

i got in my right eye one..

but i tried for 1 hr

yeah 1 HOUR to get my left eye in..

but i failed miserably =~

i wanted the professional help -no offense =X-

but that lady not free

-rolled my eyes-

blame me for my impatience

2005-01-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

alright.. i guess my final decision will be poly..

after a talk with my manager .. my brother..

poly is practical.. jc is too academic-ruled..

my colleagues mostly from jcs now in uni told me that poly graduates are better den the jc graduates in terms of performance in uni..

so now.. since i got my vision -without vision people perishes-

i hope that's wat i should do ..

nursing's the course for me..

if it is what God wans me to be in .. i guess.. anyhow also can get in =X

but ...

nursing is the easiest to get in course

so .. why should i worry?

my brother asked me to take creative media design

something im interested in..

but i cannot go uni with that diploma to study psychology..

so yeah.. i pretty much decided..

it's now the time to psycho the clique -hiak hiak-

hope that we will somehow end up in the same poly =X

2005-01-13T14:29:00.000+08:00

Outgoing (E) 50% Withdrawn (I) 50%
Realistic (S) 54.29% Imaginative (N) 45.71%
Emotional (F) 58.33% Intellectual (T) 41.67%
Organized (J) 56.25% Improvised (P) 43.75%

Your type is: ISFJ

You are a Guardian, possible professions include - counseling, ministry, library work, nursing , secretarial, curators, bookkeepers, dental hygienists, computer operator, personnel administrator, paralegal, real estate agent, artist, interior decorator, retail owner, musician, elementary school teacher, physical therapist, nurse, social worker, personnel counselor, alcohol/drug counselor.

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OMG!!!! NURSE!!!!

i alwayz know that i am good in counselling people

Outgoing (E) 50% Withdrawn (I) 50%
Realistic (S) 54.29% Imaginative (N) 45.71%
Emotional (F) 58.33% Intellectual (T) 41.67%
Organized (J) 56.25% Improvised (P) 43.75%

Your type is: ESFJ

You are a Supporter, possible professions include - nurse, social worker, caterer, flight attendant, bookkeeper, medical/dental assistant, exercise physiologist, elementary school teacher, minister/priest/rabbi, retail owner, officer manager, telemarketer, counselor, special education teacher, merchandise planner, credit counselor, athletic coach, insurance agent, sales representative, massage therapist, medical secretary, child care provider, bilingual education teacher, professional volunteer.

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i got two results cuz im 50% at introvert thing and extrovert thing

i alwayz know that im unique *smirk*

both got nurse and counsellor..

maybe

that's what i should do

so yeah

nursing.. here i come =X

2005-01-12T13:47:00.000+08:00

wondering what course should i take in poly..

i don think i will be goin jc even if i can make it

i dun think i can survive there =X

quite interested in nursing..

check out their modules.. include clinical , behaviour sciences and blah blah blah

can take psycology as an elective too

so i guess.. nursing should be the one for me =X

nyp and np both offer this course *np new course lah*

but np doesnt appeal to me as much as nyp

maybe becuz nyp very big =X

am still thinkin..

the career prospects and stuff

2005-01-11T10:08:00.000+08:00

another weird dream today..

somehow i only remember i was binding the devil in my dream -.-''

unlike some other times when i truely woke up and sae a prayer or something..

is it my over-active imagination?

i cant stop thinkin about poly and jc..

my dreams of being a psychologist..

goin to nyp open house

who wanna go can sms me? we go together..

haha..

having a chat fest -that's what gab called it- with gab later

visiting chee ning..

i am sick of working

but i like talking to the people there

haha

should i quit?

2005-01-10T08:16:00.000+08:00

i dreamt of the tsunami..

i dreamt that i was in a car that my friend was driving

i dreamt lots of weird dreams

my back is aching..

2005-01-09T01:45:00.000+08:00

was thinking alot alot this whole week..

sort of affected my whole inward mood

juz came back from my friend's grandfather's funeral

somehow reminded me of what happened last year

so many uncertain stuff yet to happen

im afraid to trust in Him..

afraid to find that i will be disappointed by my results

afraid of the tests that He's gonna give me

but i've learnt something from the lessons in victorious living

It is to ask grace from Him to let me endure the test

i guess.. He will not give anything that would break us but something to stretch us to the limit and perhaps beyond

i guess.. it's a healing process.. and it's never easy

not smooth sailing at all

Lord .. i pray..Please let me be obedience to your calling ..

i will not deny that I'm worried

after seeing all that has happened

i often wonder

would i stay on?

and after that

will i get stronger..?

questions upon questions linger in my mind

yet i noe.. His ways are higher than our ways.. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts

yet bible promises seemed to be conflicting to what i've been through..

by saying seemed i meant on the appearance..

however we should not take note of the outward appearance

so now.. what i am trying to sae is

I am confused..

the devil is up to his funny tricks again

i think i can hold on to that bible promise.. at least that the very least

He who is in me is greater than he who is in the world

so now.. God.. where should i go?

2005-01-08T07:07:00.000+08:00

it has been such a long time since i last bought any cd..

so now.. here's my to get list::

* Eternity
* Love Songs
* Love Stories
* Bling Bling 2

perhaps more when i do get my shopping done on 31st

anywae.. i love this song.. you all should listen to it =X .. it's nice

Tata Young - I Think of You

When I'm down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I'm sad and confused

When it all gets turned around and 'round
I can't seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I've believed in seems untrue
All I have to do

[Chorus]
Is think of you
I think of you and it's gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you
I think of you and I'm strong
And I know I can go on
It's like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you

Now I know what love means
And whatever life may hold for me
Through the fire
Through the rain I believe

Cause there's nothing I can't bear
Knowing that you will be there
If I fall I won't break
Through it all I'll make it through
Cause all I have to do

[Chorus]

And when I think I'm all alone
I can't see the way to go
Lost in the rain of my own tears
To wash away the pain and fear

[Chorus]

For the good times and the bad times
I just think of you
Cause you know you get the best of me
I just think of you

2005-01-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

my feet's killing me =~

i worked 10 hours straight..

haha..

saw lots of innova peeps on my way home

munirah called me .. she asked me to go innova's campfire tonight..

but too bad.. im working =X

but i LOVE CAMPFIRE..

=~

i still miss sch..

met lots of new peeps

enjoy working with the people at pasta cafe

people like jona .. yasmine.. weini.. even today.. chris..

he's so ke lian.. kana bully =X

not by me lah =X

aniwae.. the kitchen peeps are okay

except a few attitude ones *rolled eyes*

2005-01-05T09:24:00.000+08:00

how many a times are you guilty of this?

that when you need God.. then u will seek Him..

but when you dont need Him .. you will chuck Him aside?

sad to sae.. im guilty of this as well..

but when you truly repent and seek God's face once again..

It's His presence that touches you.. His presence that makes you fall all over in love with Him..

Sometimes .. when we didnt get what we pray for .. we asked God why..

we waited to hear His voice .. but to despair.. HE didnt reply..

perhaps .. friends.. it's not that He never reply.. it is that sub-conciously you alreadi passed the verdict.. that God will not reply.. that's the reason why u missed that still small voice of His

God's ways are higher than ours.. His thoughts higher than ours

Delay is never Denial.. God knows juz the right timing to do what is needed to do

When you pray.. pray with faith and expectancy.. keeps on praying without ceasing

Ask and keep on asking .. Seek and keep on seeking .. Knock and keep on knocking

Here's a not quite good example

1st 10 mins :: God help me plsplspls
20 mins later :: WAH GOD.. HELP ME NOW NOW NOW NOW ARRRR
30 mins later :: im gonna die ... im gonna die

you're being so negative and not trusting God..

instead when don't you do this..

1st 10 mins : God i pray that you will help me.. that You sae in Your Word that no weapons that form against us shall prosper.. and that i will trust in You to protect me..
20 mins later :: I know God You are with me and You will protect me..
30 mins later :: God .. it is You that i will trust

..

see the difference?

2005-01-05T08:48:00.000+08:00

i knew it was coming

i can see the tell tale signs of it

i knew it

i knew it

i knew it..

knew what??

..

...

....

.....

......

I knew that Gab was going to quit sooner of later *past tense as she alreadi quitted*

*whines*

that heartless girl left me in there to fend for myself..

oh so poor me

but nevermind

we are gonna work together like for 10 hours on friday

im gonna get so sick of her face =X

and i still cant believe that

*gab if you are seeing this*

HE'S YOUNGER THAN ME

whack me out of my shock

thankew very much

but aniwae..

im interviewing for another job too

see no point in staying after my darling is gone

awwwwwwwwwwwww

-touched??-

heh

2005-01-04T13:37:00.000+08:00

have you ever wonder how God speaks to you?

have you ever make small little prayer to God asking Him to speak to you but you did not hear His voice?

God speak to us in many many different ways.. if you're sensitive enough.. You can hear His voice..

Here's a story => A gallon of milk

A Gallon of Milk

A young man had been to Wednesday night Bible Study. The Pastor had shared about listening to God and obeying the Lord's voice. The young man couldn't help but wonder, "Does God still speak to people?" After service he went out with some friends for coffee and pie and they discussed the message. Several different ones talked about how God had led them in different ways.

It was about ten o'clock when the young man started driving home. Sitting in his car, he just began to pray, "God ... If you still speak to people speak to me. I will listen. I will do my best to obey." As he drove down the main street of his town, he had the strangest thought to stop and buy a gallon of milk. He shook his head and said out loud, God is that you?" He didn't get a reply and started on toward home. But again, the thought, buy a gallon of milk.

The young man thought about Samuel and how he didn't recognize the voice of God, and how little Samuel ran to Eli. "Okay, God, in case that is you, I will buy the milk." It didn't seem like too hard a test of obedience. He could always use the milk. He stopped and purchased the gallon of milk and started off toward home. As he passed Seventh Street, he again felt the urge, "Turn down that street."

"This is crazy," he thought, and drove on past the intersection. Again, he felt that he should turn down Seventh Street. At the next intersection, he turned back and headed down Seventh. Half jokingly, he said out loud, "Okay, God, I will". He drove several blocks when suddenly he felt like he should stop. He pulled over to the curb and looked around. He was in semicommercial area of town. It wasn't the best but it wasn't the worst of neighborhoods either. The businesses were closed and most of the houses looked dark like the people were already in bed.

Again, he sensed something, "Go and give the milk to the people in the house across the street." The young man looked at the house. It was dark and it looked like the people were either gone or they were already asleep. He started to open the door and then sat back in the car seat. "Lord, this is insane. Those people are asleep and if I wake them up, they are going to be mad and I will look stupid." Again, he felt like he should go and give the milk.

Finally, he opened the door, "Okay God, if this is you, I will go to the door and I will give them the milk If you want me to look like a crazy person, okay. I want to be obedient. I guess that will count for something but if they don't answer right away, I am out of here."

He walked across the street and rang the bell. He could hear some noise inside. A man's voice yelled out, "Who is it? What do you want?" Then the door opened before the young man could get away. The man was standing there in his jeans and t-shirt. He looked like he just got out of bed. He had a strange look on his face and he didn't seem too happy to have some stranger standing on his doorstep. "What is it?" The young man thrust out the gallon of milk, "Here, I brought this to you."

The man took the milk and rushed down a hallway speaking loudly in Spanish. Then from down the hall came a woman carrying the milk toward the kitchen. The man was following her holding a baby. The baby was crying. The man had tears streaming down his face. The man began speaking and half crying, "We were just praying. We had some big bills this month and we ran out of money. We didn't have any milk for our baby. I was just praying and asking God to show me how to get some milk." His wife in the kitchen yelled out, "I asked Him to send an Angel with some. Are you an Angel?"

The young man reached into his wallet and pulled out all the money he had on him and put in the man's hand. He turned and walked back toward his car and the tears were streaming down his face. He knew that God still answers prayers

2005-01-03T14:58:00.000+08:00

it's so nice of alex to rip my chuck of entry and post it on his blog

thanks a lot..

(sarcasm intended)

2005-01-03T08:26:00.000+08:00

alrighty..

it's time to stop my infatuation for a certain someone

2005-01-02T19:47:00.000+08:00

alright.. sch's starting for most people tml =D

haha.. but definately.. sch is better than work

trust me.. i speak from my experience..

haha.. here's my next week schedule..

monday :: 6 pm - 10 pm
tuesday :: 6 pm - 10 pm
friday :: 12 pm - 6 pm
sunday :: 1 pm - 6 pm

have fun at sch peeps

i miss sch (=

2005-01-02T01:03:00.000+08:00

came home at 7am yesterday morning.. i was stranded outside my own house *which is a normal thing for me =D* pressing the doorbell until i woke my mum up..

once i got into the house.. changing my clothes off.. i fell into deep slumber..

woke up at 12noon den went back to nap and fully awoken by 12.30pm.. haha..

prepare a bit then go to church le

pastor is so funny today ..

a new year

a new beginning

forget the past..embrace the new

God is graceful ..He is a God of chances..

new year = new chances

to improve .. to breakthrough.. to love .. to fulfil..

yup

2005-01-01T03:11:00.000+08:00

hey people...

hope i am not too late to sae this

but hey to all

HAPPY NEW YEAR

a new year ..

new targets

new goals..

excited about service tml..

FIRST SERVICE OF THE YEAR

haha..

im blogging this at vincent's hse

was supposed to thon outside

but in the end

cannot take the breeze and stuff

yeah

have fun peeps

2004-12-31T03:09:00.000+08:00

i went to bed at 8pm .. and i woke up at 2:37am and i couldnt go back to slp..

aniwae.. worked from 11 - 5 yesterday..

so far .. i've learnt what i'm supposed to learn.. pick up .. clear table.. set table.. I got my ID liao! haha.. but onli one pathetic number..still not very ready to take order .. but i noe how to key in order le and i still dunno how to make those coffee and dessert thing..

sighs.. my legs are killing me

being a waitress aint easy

met a cranky old woman today

she just couldnt get the situation right when i explained 6 times to HER already

sighs..

God is good.. HE strengthens me all the time..

so the question is..

How to be a more effective evangelist?

2004-12-30T09:00:00.000+08:00

Christ first demostrated His love for us when He died on the cross for our sins

Indeed .. we are living at the end of times ..

this is wat that is goin to happen when Christ come back for the 2nd time

firstly .. there will be a great tribulation which would last for 3 years( mt 24:29 )
secondly .. there will be a blackout (joel 2:31 )
thirdly .. the Day of the Lord will come and the resurrection of the dead and the rapture of the saints will happen simultaneously

as mentioned revelation 5:5 .. Jesus is the only worthly one to open the seal

comparing both matthew chapter 24 and relevation chapter 6.. we will then know what will come before the Day of the Lord

1st seal : Deception
Rev 6:1 - 2 and Mt 24:4-5

Aint we living in the period where people are proclaiming that they are the messiah? Aint we living in the period where various cult groups are appearing and deceive the people that they are the messiah and they committed mass suicide?

2nd seal : Wars
Rev 6:3-4 and Mt 24:6-7a

Aint we living at such a time as this where rumours of wars and wars are going on all around the world?

3rd seal : Famines
Rev 6:5-6 and Mt 24:7b

There are famines all around the 3rd world countries and more...

4th seal : Death
Rev 6:7-8 and Mt 24:7c - 8

This four seals are grouped in the catergory " beginning of sorrows "

Authority was given.. to kill 1/4 of the world population.. juz look at the recent tsunami and earthquake..

subsequently .. the 5th , 6th and 7th seal are the great tribulation , blackout and the Day of the Lord itself.

my friends.. we will be tested according to our Faith during the great tribulation..

imagine a situation .. your unsaved parents being gun-pointed in front of you .. the Anti-Christ forcing you to deny Christ or they would kill your parents in front of you.. would you succumb to the situation or will your faith stay strong?

the reason i am blogging this is not to scare anyone.. but to remind.. that the End Times are drawing near.. time is crucial .. we NID to reach out even more.. to bring all people into the kingdom of God

tribulation and suffering is a promise to us .. Jn 16:33

BE OF GOOD CHEER.. He has overcome the world..

1 Pet 2:21
" For to this you were called, because Christ also suffered for us, leaving us an example, that you should follow His steps.."

If the apostles and disciples were tortured and crucified because of the Good News.. we , the followers , will too face all these things

the Lord is merciful and gracious.. Ask for His grace to see you through all these tribulations

Rom 5:3
" And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation preduces perseverance.. "

Be ready for the Day of the Lord as it shall come as like a thief in the night... do not be caught unaware

Christ gave His life to you because of love.. will you too?

2004-12-29T13:46:00.000+08:00

the recent tsunami and the earthquake spark off several issues regarding the end of the world and some kind of spiritual stuff..

the death toll amounts to 60K and counting.. it comes too sudden .. too quick.. too unexpected..

all these reminds me of how the world is ending soon.. that the second coming of Christ would be near

as mentioned in the bible.. The day of the Lord is near .. it is mentioned as an hour.. if people living 2000 years ago said that it is an hour before the second coming of Christ .. doesnt it mean that we are just living seconds before the second coming of Him?

this is the process before the second coming of Christ .. as mention in matthew chapter 24..

chaos around the world .. followed by the great tribulation .. the sun will be darkned and the moon will not give its light , the stars will fall from heaven and the powers of the heaven will be shaken.. den the Son of Man coming on the clouds of heaven with power and great glory..

we ARE living in the end times now.. the purpose of winning souls back to the Kingdom of God is ever more important.. we are racing against time now..

am psyched to go the last lesson of victorious living today.. it's about the second coming of Christ

O God.. let this be a burden in my heart.. to win souls for You

O Lord.. You use imperfect vessel.. You use those who have a willing heart..

Images of loved ones that passed on without knowing Christ crossed my mind.. i cried and cringed at the pain of them not knowing the Lord .. somehow .. i felt guilty.. for I can do such a small thing .. inviting them to church and letting them know the Lord through me... I am accountable for all these people.. all these friends..O God.. use me now .. to let the world know..

How funny that sometimes we nid to see diasters happening right before our eyes.. before we would wake up .. before we would be reminded of our sole purpose.. to focus and concentrate.. we had NO TIME to lose..

I wan to come into the gates of heaven.. when i will be seeing Jesus face to face.. and when He asked.. What have you done for me on Earth.. I want to answer Him back .. Lord i did ALL that you want me to do .. I did all i could.. and I gave all my best..

truely this has woke me up.. people .. do not blame God for all these

some asked.. Since God is so almighty .. Why cant He take away all the Evil ..Why does He allow all the bad things happening to us...

my friends.. this answers i may not know.. but friends.. i rather trust in the Lord..

People mock at me .. saying how could u trust someone you couldnt see so much

my friends.. my answer is that I can sense His presence.. I witnessed His goodness in my life.. my friends.. Take the step to know Him.. For God said.. if you take one step closer to God.. God will take a thousand steps to you..Draw near to God and He will draw near to you

I know i will take that step .. won't you?

2004-12-29T10:43:00.000+08:00

new layout again..

quite a simple one..

was making it during the wee hours in the morning .. cuz i cant slp =D

goin to BS later this evening..

i hope to go shopping before.. nid to get formal clothings..

serving on the FIRST New Year SERVICE =D

2004-12-28T15:01:00.000+08:00

since new year is approaching.. here's my 2005 resolution::

* I'm gonna get baptised IN 2005 -that's a faith statement-
* Christian Foundation Cert in 2005
* Grow taller -LOLX!!!!!-
* I will be a good girl and a shining testimony for God
* Get a boyfriend -LOLX!!!! like real-

sighs..

im bored

waiting for time to pass

so i can go work

but working is boring too

the people there are older den me

so not much topics to talk about

being ever the shy girll

im ever so quiet there

=X

2004-12-28T13:35:00.000+08:00

read this and be touched

2004-12-28T11:25:00.000+08:00

work was ok.. i was on for the night shift.. and between 8-9pm.. there wasnt a single soul.. i was so bored =~.. i did the closing.. sweeping the floor o.O!!!.. aniwae.. i had a pretty hard time sweeping up the dirt and stuff out of the carpet..the people there are quite nice lor..

the onli thing i hate is .. i am not working with my dahling =~..

my schedule for this week is .. today.. 6pm - 10pm.. and on sunday 1pm-6pm.. gab is working almost everyday.. guess she will learn faster than me =D..

drop by if you are free okie?

2004-12-27T12:56:00.000+08:00

starting work today at 6pm..

not same shift as gab

wonder how would i fair =X

anione wan to come and find me ? =X

2004-12-26T14:53:00.000+08:00

到底哪一种感情最重要?

是失去但又难忘的?

还是拥有而不能放手的?

am feeling pretty sad

i guess some people would noe the source of my sadness

LoLx

but i guess..

it's time to move on

either a person moves forward.. or a person moves backward

no one can stay stagnant forever

so i rather choose the former

2004-12-26T12:05:00.000+08:00

whoa.. hehe..i am BACK!!!!!

anione misses me? =X

christmas drama was fabulous.. so sad that some of my friends couldnt make it..

the drama was touching yet funny ..

although my friends werent really open.. but continual prayer over their life definately would help them =D

juz wana sae .. SORRY.. to gabbie dahling .. i couldnt make it to ur christmas party.. i m sure you did great .. and yeah..

too much to blog.. so i rather dont blog everything down =X

but im glad this christmas..

i met more people.. =D

haha.. aniwae.. i went to suntec with my cg and friends..

saw my brother and he dao-ed me =~

so i kept shouting his name

and make me feel so paiseh =X

my cg members commented.. how come ur brother tall u short..

my brother's friends commented.. how come ur sister so short

sighx~

not i wan de mah =X

2004-12-24T01:22:00.000+08:00

i never knew i could fall so bad

ehx.. juz reached home not long ago.. haha..went out with millie and her friend..

actually planned alot of stuffs de..

but in the end .. all was cancelled =~

but never mind .. still got new year..

anyway .. millie wanna wear her black dress tml

she ask me to pei her

so the only dress i got is my prom dress =X

but since it's xmas

why not =D

a shout out to all

mErRy

ChRiStMaS

2004-12-23T00:33:00.000+08:00

sighs..

suddenly i felt so confused..

received this np thing about the diplomas they provide

picked it up and started browsing through it..

out of all the courses available.. i am only interested in like 5 -.-''

i think if i can go jc with my Os results

i will be at the losing side cuz i missed that 3 mths

=~

i really wan to go jc if i can make it

i pray that i can make it at least

i asked my brother about it..

he said that 3 mths is not really that impt

sigh..

i ask him.. what look i have.. jc look or poly look..

he said i got the SAJC look =X

haha.. blehx.. i really wanted to go sajc..

but most of the time.. when i really wan to get into the sch of my dreams

it alwayz dont happen that way

sighs..

all i asked for is L1R5 < 10

if my bro can do it..

why cant i =X

i have to go thru the A lvl to get into Uni to pursue the psychology route

God.. guide me..

sighs..

2004-12-22T15:11:00.000+08:00

received lots of christmas cards today =X

felt abit guilty for not sending any =X

real busy this week..

cuz it's the xmas season?

goin to orchard tangs tml to support caroling..

my church choir mah =D

yeah.. juz a simple entry bahz..

update after xmas

2004-12-21T12:53:00.000+08:00

a random post.. a jumbled up post..

the things that God do alwayz came unexpected.. prayer travels a thousand miles ..

sometimes i wonder.. what do i really wan in life

is studies really that impt to me?

what if i cant get into a jc after my o lvl results were released

will i still be strong for God..

will i still stay and hold on to the promises of God..

few people really understand..

even those who said they do ..

because different things affect people in a different way

although at some point or another..

they do know how i feel

was talking to yuwei yesterday

about everything under the sun

i am blessed to have such friends in sch .. people like gab and yuwei..

the people i can easily open up to

i wonder..

if i will ever meet such friends again next time whether im in poly or jc

prayers do travel a thousand miles

just on saturday i was praying for some friends

on monday.. my prayers were answered

night view at esplanade is superb

that's the place with the ambience and all

God speaks to people everywhere.. even at the strangest places

i should go esplanade more often

alone or with friends..

-memories sealed-

2004-12-21T12:32:00.000+08:00

Your Beauty lies
in Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl next
door. People tend overlook you as you are the
"normal girl", but you're actually
very beautiful. And you have plenty about you to
set you apart, but more that
lets you blend. People love the stability you have
because as others may come
and go, you will always be there and you may always
be the same. You like simple
things and that's what people like about you. You
most likely enjoy things most
consider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort
of thing and are very friendly
and probably have many friends. You are sweet and
kind and that shows on you,
but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a
rather well-rounded
individual. Even though some people pass you off as
just another girl, shrug it
off because they don't know what they're
missing.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color:
Pinks, Blues, Browns Song:
Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple
Smile

Gemstone:
Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Fox
Demon, Hobbit Planet: Jupiter Hair
Color: Light Brown Eye Color:
Brown

Quote:
"To the world you may be one person, but to
one person you may be the world."

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2004-12-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

today is an incredible day

went out with the gang *yuwei , kaijun , jackson , yong cherng , ms hee and me* .. we were supposed to meet 10:30am at the control station.. i reached there around 10:17am .. den i waited for yuwei.. she reached at ard 10:22am.. and after that kaijun reached at 10:34am.. we then received a call from jackson saying that there's a jam at the custom there.. so we walked around cwp while waiting for them.. we were supposed to meet ms hee at toa payoh at 11am *LoLx*.. after a long wait.. we reached the place at 12+ to 1.. yeah.. den we decided to go party world at Orchard.. before that we dropped by macdonalds to grab our "lunch"..

party world::
all of us went crazy?!?!?! although they charged atrocious fees.. but i think we enjoyed ourselves pretty much.. we were there from 2 pm - 6pm..really enjoyed the time there

after that.. we decided to drop by isetan at lido.. cuz ms hee wanna get a dress from there .. on the way between lucky plaza and paragon .. i saw in the midst of the people.. SOMEONE THAT IS SO FAMILIAR.. i pulled ms hee away and begun to chase the person.. and yeah.. wanted to take photo with *him* but very shy .. LoLx.. in the end.. that *SOMEONE* went into the shop .. and we had to wait for him to come out =X.. but im so HAPPY... really very happy that i finally did it =X.. i took a photo with that someone .. LOLX.. actually two photos.. He quite friendly lah.. haha.. he still ask whether all of us were from church .. den sae to the unchurch friends that they should come .. he really very friendly ..

okie.. that person is actually BROTHER MARK!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am still super happy..

haha.. but overall .. we really had fun together .. talking and spending time with each other..

our last stop was esplanade..

the place where we chatted until 10+pm..

i hope this friendship would last forever =D

2004-12-20T01:53:00.000+08:00

new layout..

nice?

*beams*

2004-12-19T15:21:00.000+08:00

new song written by BRO MARK and SIS CAROLINE

---
A HEART AFTER YOU
---

CREATE IN ME A NEW HEART
ONE THAT FOLLOWS YOU
PLACE IN ME
A DEEP DESIRE
TO KNOW YOU AS I'M KNOWN

SET MY FEET IN YOUR WAYS
TO LIVE WORTHY OF YOUR CALL
DRAW ME NEAR TO YOU LORD
EVERY SINGLE DAY

I JUST WANT TO BE MORE LIKE YOU
WALK WITH YOU BESIDE ME
LORD WON'T YOU BE MY GUIDE
PLACE YOUR HEART INSIDE MY SOUL
A HEART THAT'S EVER TRUE
ONE THAT'S AFTER YOU

All I DESIRE
A HEART AFTER YOU
ALL I DESIRE
A HEART AFTER YOU

--

Erana Leef - Amen

each morning i wake up
to live another day
give thanks to the lord
got down my knees and pray
for i noe deep inside
my purpose in life

and to love and be loved
to forgive and be forgiven
to bless and be blessed
forever and ever
amen .. amen

---
Listening to : Amen - Erana Leef/Clark

sy rogers svc was GREAT..

he's very humourous and the subject he tapped on is really wat the people of this generation nid to have a clear idea about

i had a lot to blog about

but i dun i shld do it here

2004-12-18T12:07:00.000+08:00

blehx..

new layout might not be up till next year

firstly .. im busy

secondly .. although i have alreadi edited the pics and stuff .. i got zilch idea how i wan the total look to be like

but i have alreadi figured out the dhtml code thingie

smart girl huh?

maybe i shld take up IT courses in poly

sighs

i think im too easily affected by the people around me

2004-12-17T14:15:00.000+08:00

Listening : Windstruck OST [ Reunion Theme ]
Feeling : sad

im feeling sad becuz of that song

i mean .. i was reminded of the scene where kyungjin and myungwoo met for the last time..

before myungwoo proceed on

=~

so sad..

i was just wondering

if ever one day

a girl has a boyfriend

the boyfriend died in a freak accident

should the girl stop having relationship with other guys?

i was wonderin , if the girl do stop all relationship with other guyz , the day when she went to heaven , would the guy be with her? would the guy want the girl to stop loving people ?

[ Listening : Windstruck ost - Tears by X Japan ]

i was wondering , if the girl move on with her life

she got married and settled down

when her time came ..

would the boyfriend be sad

becuz now the girl is married

and that they cant be together

juz a thought

Where do we go after we're separated
Now that hanging question has passed
On an endless night, I dreamt of a journey
I gazed at the foreign skies
and embraced the loneliness
Tears always flow with the winds of time
It's not over, feel your sigh

2004-12-17T01:27:00.000+08:00

juz finished watching my sassy girl

i still like windstruck

but i am loving korean dramas/movies and its language more n more each day

hehx

2004-12-16T09:47:00.000+08:00

i was reading some articles about Jang Hyuk.. and my goodness.. he's such a professional actor. I mean he's willing to try and practise as much as he can to perfect a role . He watched at least 2 movies each night to broaden the number of roles he can act as and when in doubt about how to act a certain role , he will find the answer by watching a movie with similar role in it. He doesnt have any airs and he blushes!!! So Cute rite!! I mean HOW MANY guy actors actually will blush? i think most guy actors too thick-skinned *generalisation =X*.. pardon my biased comment .. haha

but really guyz who blush are just too cute *like above mentioned*

aniwae.. i asked korkor to buy the ARMY tee for me..

haha.. so now both gab and i got one

so next time we go out , we can wear (winkz*

blehx.. aniwae she's out to thailand

in the meanwhile i got no swimming khaki

so gab...YOU MUST FASTER COME BACK

2004-12-15T11:02:00.000+08:00

Listening to : The Bright Girl's Success ost - It's you *my blog music lah*

had a quarrel with my mum yesterday over water baptism

partly my fault..partly her fault tooo

korkor sae he will help me talk to her..

but i must promise him to build up the communication between the both of us

blehx..

i will not be goin to learn korean lang anytime sooner *rolled eyes*

i should be thankful im not grounded alreadi

but it's really ........

frustrating!

forget it..

aniwae.. new music for my blog

a new layout coming soon

featuring jang hyuk *who else*

but that is unless i got all the dhtml code figured out

or else the layout wun work

cuz it's the expandable stuff

so yeah..

save more space and makes my blog looks neater..

so yeah..

christmas is coming

it's gonna get busy

i will be goin to Gab's church xmas thingie

cuz she will be singing

i have to go and support my bestie yeah

blehx..

dun really have the moood to blog..

going for bible study later

anywhere else is better than home

excluding my bed

2004-12-14T16:04:00.000+08:00

listening to :: JJ - dou jiang you tian

might be taking korean lang course here

taken the link from qaswedfrt blog

I'm exceptionally artistic!

Find your soul type at kelly.moranweb.com.

Fair enough. Perhaps they haven't. But now that you know, you must become one with your inner self.

Virtues: You look for immense creativity and individuality in people, including yourself. You're not happy with anything less than brilliant, and you focus on being expressive. You value energy, liveliness, and upbeat personalities, but you're not supportive of moodiness when you yourself can be unreliably moody. Seeking activity, you like the bustle of business but need the secluded atmosphere of a studio or private corner.

Aspirations: You feel the need to express your talents, whether it be through writing, drawing, singing, dancing, composing, performing, or photographing. While you strive to ever improve your work, you want to display it as soon as possible when your impatience kicks in. You want to be a prodigy but you might not have the means right at your fingertips. Trust me, do NOT move to New York to do it. Yeesh!

Quirks: Conformists bother you because of their lack of individuality. You're often late or unreliable. You're showy and refuse to share the spotlight. You only tell little white lies. You worm your way into the hearts of others, but be careful; some people despise the show-offs.

Factors: Surround yourself with activity and you'll always have material to work with. Involve friends and family in your projects so they don't feel like envious outsiders.

Future: Show business or not, you'll settle down happily if you're among those who appreciate your natural talents and desire to perform. Don't stay in one place too long, and don't be too hasty in defining your relationships. Who are you to judge what only time will tell?

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wow.. it's like.. true to a certain extent..

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2004-12-14T14:27:00.000+08:00

the "perfect" guy in my opinion:

1) He has to love God
2) He has to be at least 2 years older than me
3) He cannot be 13 years older than me =X
4) 12 years older than me is acceptable =XXXXX
5) He should be able to sing well =XXXX
6) I prefer natural hair colour =X
7) He should be good in his language =X
8) He should be look-alikes of Kim Rae Won or Jang Hyuk

wah.. sounds so familiar hor =X

too obvious le =X

btw.. anione got dvd/vcd of my sassy girl , please teach me english and volcano high?

2004-12-14T13:10:00.000+08:00

i finished the successful story of a bright girl in a day

straight 16 hours of non-stop watching the show

haha..

i hogged the tv !!

im loving jang hyuk more!

the soundtrack also quite nice

so i wanna buy..

jang hyuk!!!

jang hyuk!!!

2004-12-13T11:11:00.000+08:00

WE ARE THE REASON

As little children, we would dream of Christmas morn
And all the gifts and toys we knew we'd find
But we never realised a baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

We were the reason that He gave his life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by, we learnt more about gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
Because of love, because of love

We were the reason that He gave his life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do, every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

And we are the reason that He gave his life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

He is my reason to live...

2004-12-13T10:44:00.000+08:00

went blog hopping ..

guess i did some things that is so unlike me

well , i guess , everyone nids encouragement..

whether they ask it or not

but hey.. in the kingdom of God , we cares for all

so yeah..

doesnt make sense to u?

LoLx..

nvm..

beginning to read the book of Nehemiah

so yeah..

i dreamt about alot of weird stuff this few days

must bind the dreams lest it come to pass =X

2004-12-12T09:15:00.000+08:00

was touched by the sermon and of cuz the presence of God

i felt so strongly about the Lord telling me about my past dreams

the dreams that i had and i tht i had lost them

losing them created a negative impact..

i wasnt the same..

my life was in topsy turvy

sometimes im strong

sometimes im not

but it's gonna change

When God placed a rhema word in us.. we knew it .. and when we acted upon it miracles gonna happen

i felt hard to talk to anyone about my feelings regarding everything *when i am trying to sae is accountability*

but i felt it quite easy to type it out

that's why i chose the latter

i tried to talk to somebody .. but i couldnt get it out of my mouth

but i have made a decision..

and wow.. it has been a long time since i had to decide whether either be HOT or COLD .. i cannot be lukewarm all the time.. becuz Jesus hate Lukewarm people

it's a surprise i knew it.. and i had to take so long to think about it..

Miracles alreadi happened when we have the FAITH to believe , to hold on and to see it come to pass

my miracle is coming

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aniwae.. went for dr John's svc too *so im on S2 and S3*

was rejected by choir when i went to serve for S3.. simply becuz im wearing a skirt .. LoLx.. maybe tis is a God incidence.. u noe?

i ended up sitting at the edge nears the seats.

which is 3 SEATS AWAY FROM B*

LOLX!!!!!!!

im happy?

Maybe i shld like learn from Dr JOhn

start praying for the other half

LOLX!!

okie.. im crazy

aniwae.. on the way home i msg-ed my brother asking him whether did he buy the windstruck ost

he said it was out of stock

den i was so sad

when i went home..

my brother told me.. actually.. he bought the last one.. LOLX!!

but since it's a gift xchange

he has to wait until i get him the COOL bag..before letting me enjoy the songs

EVIL!

and he LIED!!

but i forgave him

cuz he BOUGHT THE CD FOR ME

muahahahhahahaha

im a happy person

2004-12-10T22:28:00.000+08:00

Harry Potter Personality Quiz by Pirate Monkeys Inc.

quite accurate.. the empathetic part

watched incredibles..

i love jack jack

cute little bundle of..erm..

nice stuff =X

2004-12-10T11:48:00.000+08:00

there's 3 editions of the DVD!!!

i want that limited edition one!!!!!

click here to view

This triple DVD combo version comes with an exclusive booklet and the movie's original soundtrack
DVD features include:

Disc 1

Windstruck TheaterVersion
Windstruck Director's Cut Version (approximately 13 minutes longer than TheaterVersion)
Commentary by Kwak Jae-young, Jung Ji-hyun and Jang Hyuk
Music video
Disc 2

Making of (approximately 170 minutes)
Deleted scenes (approximately 10 minutes)
NG scenes (approximately 30 minutes)
Interviews with Kwak Jae-young, Jung Ji-hyun and Jang Hyuk)
Interview with Jung Ji-hyun by Times magazine
Trailer, Poster shooting plus more
Disc 3

Alternate view: Continuity & Easter Egg ( approximately 30 minutes)
Short film by Kwak Drawing the Teacher (Award-winning work from the Korean Young Film Festival in 1985)

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why am i living in singapore?!?!?!

might be signing up to learn korean language..

2004-12-10T11:40:00.000+08:00

alrighty..

korkor sae he will look out for windstruck ost for me during the weekends..

if it's not out of stock , he might get it for me

im a happy person =D

on the other hand.. i will not be getting windstruck vcd

i will wait for the dvd instead

went surfing around.. the dvd was released in korea on dec 8

meaning.. it would be still quite some time before it would reach singapore..

so i will wait for it.. since dvd quality is better and it includes more stuff =D

im happy ~~

Christmas is great..

juz great..

im gettting that bag ..

but out of stock..

blehx

it seems that whatever i wan this christmas is either nearly out of stock .. or out of stock..

patience my dear girl..

it will pay off

or so i hope =D

2004-12-09T12:00:00.000+08:00

tears - x japan *windstruck ost* translated version

Tears

music & lyrics: Yoshiki

Where do we go after we're separated
Now that hanging question has passed
On an endless night, I dreamt of a journey
I gazed at the foreign skies
and embraced the loneliness
Tears always flow with the winds of time
It's not over, feel your sigh.

* Dry your tears with love

Loneliness, your silent whisper
fills a river of tears through the night
Memory, you never let me cry
and you, you never said good-bye
Sometimes our tears blinded the love
We lost our dreams along the way
But I never thought
you'd trade your soul to the fates,
never thought you'd leave me alone

Time through the rain has set me free
Sands of time will keep your memory
Love everlasting fades away
Alive within your beatless heart

* repeat

Tears always flow with the winds of time
It's not over, blue rose from sadness

* repeat

Tears always flow with the winds of time
It's not over, feel your sigh.

* repeat x2

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2004-12-09T09:17:00.000+08:00

me! with my very big eyes =X as i proclaim .. i shall have it!!! LoLx

2004-12-09T09:09:00.000+08:00

went orchard yesterday

saw windstruck ost and vcd

wanna buy

HMV dun allow cashcard

so sad..

i dun have cash

only got cashcard

went home feeling super sad

korkor sae he buy for me

HAHAHhahahahHAHAHAHhahahahhAHHAHAH

as xmas present

see he so nice

den i sae.. i buy nice nice sling bag for him

so i am goin to heeren and see see

maybe grab some guy friends along to give me ideas

but today i am goin to heeren

to shop for christmas and birthday presents

my darling birthday on 15th.. dunno what to get for her

aniwae..

i saw this bag I REALLY REALLY REALLY like

den .. yesterday .. jiejie went with me.. den she also fell in luv with the bag

but left 1 only

=~

maybe drop by J8 see see walk walk

sekali got the bag

maybe got NICER one

LoLx

OH YEAH!

yesterday went for bible study at YMCA *Y.M.C.A , Your Manger Can Anot*

Pst Audrey was preaching for Victorious Living

she PREACHED very fast

i was late =X went in ard 6:15

came out at 6:40

must wait for the laying foundation people

quite disappointed lehx

cuz hor i missed alot of sessions of victorious living due to Os and stuff

OR ELSE i would have gotten my cert of Christian Foundation last week

=~~~~~~~~~~

nevermind.. i will get it next year

with tanya they all

haha..

i still haven go newcomers' tea lehx

where gt oldcomer go newcomers' tea de

=~~~~~~~~~

why?!?!?!?!?!

aniwae.. i took a new foto =X i will post it up to show up my very very big eyes =X

im a narcissist.. dun blame me =D

2004-12-08T12:06:00.000+08:00

ahHh..

while surfin ard in friendster

i stumbled upon one's profile

and one's photo

THAT ABSOLUTELY SCREAM PORNO!!!!!

that person is sick

very sick!

2004-12-08T11:28:00.000+08:00

why things that happen in ou xiang ju dont happen in reality?

2004-12-07T06:55:00.000+08:00

Listening : Bk Love - Windstruck OST

i felt detached from the world

maybe i am

im lost

not getting back

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Definition
empathy [Show phonetics]
noun [U]
the ability to share someone else's feelings or experiences by imagining what it would be like to be in their situation

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the only ability i have i guess?

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dunno what to post .. dunno how to post.. a total jumbled up post..

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am i saecinhrg for smotenihg ?

im not srue

this post doesnt mean aynhtnig

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i felt so alone in the vast world

i have lost the link

I've thrown away the key

someone once said , to feel the warmth sunshine you have to first open the door you had locked

i lost that damn key