Saturday, October 30, 2004
aint suppose to come online .. but i had this strong urge to share this msg.. Pastor preached about Worship today.. had a new revelation about it.. really .. felt happy =D.. aniwae.. the service was filled with the tangible presence of God.. He just ministered to all of us in a special way.. =D
O LORD MY GOD
O LORD MY GOD
ALL I DESIRE IS YOU
O LORD MY GOD
ALL I DESIRE IS YOU
MORE PRECIOUS THAN SILVER
MORE COSTLY THAN GOLD
NO RICHES ON THIS EARTH
COMPARE WITH YOU
AND WHAT CAN THIS WORLD OFFER
WHEN ALL I DESIRE IS YOU
--
I WAN TO SING UNTIL I'M LOST IN YOUR LOVE
I WAN TO SING
UNTIL I AM LOST IN YOUR LOVE
TILL I'M FOUND IN YOUR PRESENCE
WORSHIPPING BEFORE YOUR THRONE
MOVE BY YOUR SPIRIT
ENTERING INTO YOUR FLOW
HOW PRECIOUS THIS MOMENT
LORD I WANT YOU TO KNOW
IT'S YOU , YOU WHO HAVE WON MY HEART
TAKEN ME INTO YOUR ARMS
COMFORTED ME LIKE A FRIEND
YOUR LOVE
SURROUNDED ME FROM THE START
I NEVER WANT TO BE APART
FROM YOU EVER AGAIN
---
again and again .. God had begun to minister to me .. in all my needs.. challenging me.. once i have put studies in front of God.. when bad things happen to my studies.. i blamed God.. but now .. i noe NOTHING is more precious than God.. NOTHING AT ALL.. i put my studies upon my altar of sacrifices..i noe .. i had made the decision to put GOD first in my life.. no matter what..
i noe my future's in His hands.. He planned a future for me even when Im in my mother's womb.. how great is He.. the creator and maker ..
i Love Him.. for this reason.. i will shine for His glory
w i t h . l o v e
11:36 PM
i had been living on instant noodles this few days as my parents are too busy and im too lazy and busy to go down and grab some food..
so today.. i got sick of instant noodles.. and i got sick of studying.. so i decided to whip up something to eat..
thx God for all the home econs lessons i had during lower sec..
and my A wasnt wasted ..
so i can suggest.. next time.. when my parents are too busy.. i will cook..
LoLx..
w i t h . l o v e
11:07 AM
Friday, October 29, 2004
i did 5 amath qns..
and i fell asleep..
only woke up 5 hrs later..
this is taking too much of my brain power..
i shall practise on emath
tml i shall do ss
sun i shall do chi
mon i shall do ss again
tue i shall do emath..study a bit on the english format and stuff
wed i shall do emath
thur i shall do amath..
fri i shall do emath..
sat i shall do emath
sun i shall do acct
mon i shall do acct
tue i shall do chem
wed i shall do chem
thur i shall do phy
fri i shall do phy
sat i shall do amath
sun i shall do hist
and the list go on..
i really nid God's grace..
so.. pls pray for me =X
thx
w i t h . l o v e
6:56 PM
Thursday, October 28, 2004
MY COMP IS DRIVING ME NUTS
w i t h . l o v e
5:33 PM
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
i knew it..
it must be the holy spirit
im glad i didnt go sch today
they did NOTHING in sch..
and they went home before sch ends
LOLX
studied a bit on amath..
wow.. it's like.. suddenly .. *as my brother has said*.
i felt a guitar hitting my head.. and all of a sudden.. the things becum so clear *beams*
still got some i dunno de.. but shall ask my brother..
Praise the Lord..
i went blog hopping just now
wow.. this year sec 3 batch aint doing very well..
a number was promoted to sec 4Na instead of 4E..
makes me wonder.. is EOY really that difficult?
if it is.. it must be God's grace for me to promote to sec 4E
now now.. what can i do w/o God =D
thinkin of doin little cards for my friends to encourage them for O..
but .. time is limited =X
so i shall juz send sms ..
they'll understand =X
hehe...
gonna rest a bit and then go study
still comtemplating whether still i go sch tml..
hmMmMMMm
w i t h . l o v e
2:06 PM
i skipped sch today =D
didnt wan to go sch and waste time talking to musa and gang =X
so i rather stay at home and practise on Amath
yesterday phy prac was quite easy..
Mr Chandra spotted the exact same questions.. LOLX
He super good at spotting questions.. last year help the previous batch too =D
he said that he's gonna spot for us the long questions also..
but i didnt go sch today..
so i'll ask him tml
and yesterday prac.. although my gradient reading was 10 .. but Mr chandra sae.. they will look at our tabulated results and see the calculation..
wont lose marks =D
just thank God for it lor.. i mean.. without God .. i noe i will not perform well..
so now i shall not worry but i will lift it to God
countdown to O:5 more days =D
all the best all =D
w i t h . l o v e
7:34 AM
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
a little something to share .. my darling for made me this sweet card and inside was a little poem.. i found it quite meaningful.. so im gonna post it here =D
Sometimes i ask the question
" My Lord , is this your will?"
It's then i hear you answer me ,
" My precious child .. be still ."
Sometimes , i feel frustrated
Cause i think i know what's best
"My busy child ... just rest!"
Somtimes i feel so longely
and i think i'd like a mate
your still small voice gets so clear and says,
"My child..please wait."
" I know the plans i have for you;
The wondrous things you'll see;
if you can just be patient , child ,
and put your trust in me;
I've plans to help you grow.
There's much i do you cannot see
and much you do not know.
But know this child , I LOVE YOU.
You are precious unto me
Before i formed you in the womb
I planned your destiny.
I've something very speacial.
I hope for you to learn.
The gifts i wish to give to you
Are gifts you cannot earn.
They come without a price tag
But not without a cost;
at Calvary I gave my son,
So you would not be lost.
Rest child , and dont grow weary of doing what is good.
I promise I'll come back for you
Just like i said i would
Your name is written on my palm,
i never would forget
Therefore do not be discouraged
When my answer is ..
"Not Yet!"
--
God do things according to His divine timing .. His ways are higher than our ways.. His thoughts higher than our thoughts..
sometimes .. we tend to focus too much on ourselves.. blaming God for not answering our prayers.. but God isnt not answering.. It is just not His time.
Indeed it was written in His words .. ask and you shall be given , seek and you shall find.. but there isnt a time factor written in the promise..delay is never denial.. He works according to His time.. Be patient.. i got this quote from dear ms hee's blog
"'God answers prayers in 3 ways. 1st, he says YES and he gives it to u. 2nd he says WAIT, and he gives u something BETTER. 3rd he says NO but he gives u something else which is the BEST for u."
God works things in different ways.. i noe that this card was sent to me at the correct time on the correct day.. i was doubting myself .. my ability to perform in practical.. but God sent this little poem through gabbie to me.. indeed .. it lifted me up..
i thank God for sending His encouragements.. and i thank God for gabbie , the one true friend i can count on .. and both of us are christians =D .. that's the best thing .. we encourage each others with the promises of God.. =DDDDDD
i am happy.. the joy of the Lord is my strength
w i t h . l o v e
5:26 PM
Monday, October 25, 2004
my brother told me the secret to his success .. *7 points for O lvl*
he studied at the last min .. the day before the final exams then study..
so he told me
u have to study until you feel there's one guitar hitting your head *that is too profound.i cant understand it*
if any of you understands.. pls tell me..
=X
tml is phy prac.. so i guess.. i shld study phy today?
shld i skip sch on wed and thurs?
*ponders*
heck =X
i do think im taking God's advantage.. yes.. indeed God's grace is sufficient.. but i shldnt take it for granted..
so i shld study hard
make full use of my 6 days left..
alrighty
w i t h . l o v e
11:11 AM
Sunday, October 24, 2004
OMGOSH!!!!
i didnt study @ all today
i didnt study much this week
WHAT'S HAPPENING??
i dun feel stresss
i dun fear
i dun feel the tension to study
it is juz 7 more days
i tht my prayer WORKS TOO WELL
God gives me TOO MUCH of a peace of my mind
HIS grace is really sufficient
shall pray again..and this time
I WILL/MUST STUDY
w i t h . l o v e
6:26 PM
my new hairstyle !! 
w i t h . l o v e
10:56 AM
Aries and YinGx @ church lobby 
w i t h . l o v e
10:55 AM
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Refuge - Sang by Brother Mark .. Written by Pastor Sun and Bro Mark
I SING A LOVE SONG TO YOU LORD
EVERYDAY EVERY NIGHT
TELL OF YOUR GOODNESS AND MERCY
TELL THE WORLD HOW YOU RESCUED ME
PICKED ME UP , FROM SIN AND SHAME
YOUR BREATH GIVES ME NEW LIFE
WHERE CAN I GO FROM YOUR PRESENCE
UNDER YOUR WINGS I TAKE REFUGE
YOUR SPIRIT LIVES WITHIN MY HEART
I KNOW WE'LL NEVER BE APART
EVERYDAY I DRAW CLOSER TO YOU LORD
I LONG TO SEE YOUR FACE
AND HIDE IN YOUR EMBRACE
ALL MY LIFE
DWELLING IN YOUR HOLY PLACE
MY HEART O LORD YOU'VE CHANGED
I'LL NEVER BE THE SAME
---
in five words ,
i simply love this song
w i t h . l o v e
10:57 AM
Friday, October 22, 2004
it's the first time im using fork *gasps*
w i t h . l o v e
1:54 PM
after taking so many pics.. we saw this sign *smirks*
w i t h . l o v e
1:53 PM
our reflection 2
w i t h . l o v e
1:53 PM
our reflection
w i t h . l o v e
1:52 PM
omg!!! shuai ge over there
w i t h . l o v e
1:52 PM
abstract photo???
w i t h . l o v e
1:51 PM
taken in the MRT.. our shoes/sandal/feet?
w i t h . l o v e
1:50 PM
Thursday, October 21, 2004
Listening to : Zhang Shao Han - Wo de zui Ai
maybe.. i dun nid to go overseas for a degree in psychology..
juz read the straits time today..
the university of new south wales is due to open a campus here in 2007
they offer courses like arts and social sciences and blah blah blah
it's called double degree in 5 years..
and they OFFER psychology..
and it is in singapore
so i nid to go to their australia counterpart
LoLx..
admission grade : A lvl - A , B , B
Poly - b average
suddenly.. im not so stressed about making it to Uni in Aust..
im gonna make that my goal.. =D
*beams*
chem prac was ok i guess..
lost 8 marks..
so i guess..
it's quite alright??
LoLx
w i t h . l o v e
5:04 PM
Listening to : Dashboard Confessions - Vindicated
" do you have the time to listen to me whine
About nothing and everything all at once
I am one of those
Melodramatic fools
Neurotic to the bone
No doubt about it "
-Basket case - Green Day
" When the door shuts, don't worry about me
It's not attention that I want from you
I need you to trust who Im gonna be
And in everything Im going to do
Cause Im not afraid of what I don't know
For understanding is all that I earn
But what is for sure is Im going to go
Im going to live and Im going to learn "
- Right before your eyes - Hoobastank
" 我喜欢这样的感觉 我只想要简单的快乐
希望和你一起拥有 轻轻松松的享受 "
wo xi huan - david tao
w i t h . l o v e
8:29 AM
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
i surfed around the net..
heard one of green day's songs..
sounds not bad..
dl-ed a few more
actually quite nice leh
im pretty shocked..
i tht that their music's gonna be all shouting and stuff *like heavy metal stuff*
but then .. it's quite not..
although the singer looks abit gothic..
but his voice is quite cute leh =X
w i t h . l o v e
3:58 PM
God!!! Help me!!!
sitting with musa , gary , jasmine and jian mei doesnt make me more studious..
they make me talk more .. focus less *whines*
LoLx.. alright.. i'll juz blame it on myself.. oh my so poor concentrating skills =D
aniwae.. felt so lethargic in school today.. LoLx... i waited all night for gab's msg until i fell asleep..
ONLY to get the msg in the morning .. telling me gab's sick AGAIN???
don't worry my darling.. i will be praying for you yeah?
tml's chem practical .. oh mine!!!!!!! i really nid to go and pray about it..
aniwae.. i was doing amaths and physics today..
to find out that i NID help in physics.. that thing is TOTALLY EVIL..
oh well.. i will rely on God's strength..
and i nid to mug more for chem , phy and amath
i think i shld juz give up on accounts..
it's wasting my time
not to mention i got 3 papers on my last day.. which is chem and accounts
so i shld juz focuz on chem right?
*waiting for any reply*
on the other hand.. i shldnt give up liddat.. i shld do well.. to show the people i can do it.. and be a GOOD testimony for God's kingdom
im in a dilemma (LoLx)
so i shld juz stop talking and concentrate
yeah .. i could concentrate.. if gary and musa stop making me laugh
blehx..
im taking a little break and go back to study at 3:30pm..
CHEM
one of my church mates says that i got that "CHEMISTRY" look in me..
LoLx..
one of my friends commented that i look like an elf
i mean... wat the dot? elf?
spare me =D
w i t h . l o v e
2:43 PM
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Listening to : Planet Shakers - Running after you
Yeah Yeah
Your Word is a light unto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes Your ways
I cannot understand
I'll never walk away because my future's In Your hands
I dont care what people will say
Im running after You
I won't turn back and go their way
Coz I'm running after You
Yeah
Im running after You
Im running after You
(I will run to You)
No matter what may come my way
Im running after you
It's You I'm following today
I'm running after You
I'm running after You
woh... im excited.. FOR JESUS.. when i shld be studying.. i juz cudnt get my mind off the days after O lvl..cuz.. it's gonna be all out evangelism time.. im free up.. my friends are free... 100% can bring my friends to noe Jesus..
Listening to : Hillsong - I will Go
i got sch at 2 pm later... i wonder what's wrong with the teacher .. why they cant make it earlier?
had a weird dream .. LoLx.. maybe becuz i was reading the bible before i slept .. and i read about lots of people having dreams..
felt really happy and hyper..
It's the presence of God
w i t h . l o v e
7:34 AM
Monday, October 18, 2004
touched by God's presence..
w i t h . l o v e
3:59 PM
Journey - Angela Chang
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you to you
--
that song best describes how i feel most of the time .. i think angela chang is a christian ..LoLx
hua de jia sha - cyndi
花 开在太阳下 等着情人呀 努力盛开却 等不到它
雨 忽然一直下 打乱着花嫁 骗自己它就要 到了
可以哭 却还拼命的挣扎 说什么 只会让人当笑话
爱 是花儿的芬芳 是 蝴蝶的翅膀
是 伤心的蒲公英迷失它的方向
爱 在孤独中绝望 在绝望中坚强
坚强后继续不停 想着它
他 丢了爱的他 心像被针扎 身体无助到 像要死掉
雨 一直不停下 眼里进了砂 骗自己已没有牵挂
w i t h . l o v e
2:04 PM
ahhh.. God.. bind that spirit of procrastination..
i cant bring myself to study
juz feel like slping ..
gab!!!!help!!!.. knock me to my senses
w i t h . l o v e
1:33 PM
Saturday, October 16, 2004
Hillsong - I will go
WOH OH WOH OH (X8)
I HAVE FOUND MYSELF IN YOU
THE PURPOSE FOR MY LIFE
I DISCOVER WHO I AM
AS YOUR SPIRIT TOUCHES MINE
EVERY STEP I TAKE
EVERY MOVE I MAKE
YOU ARE BY MY SIDE
AND I WILL BE STRONG
MY STRENGTH IS IN YOU
CHORUS:
(YES)I WILL GO WHERE YOU WANT ME TO GO
I WILL DO WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO
YES I WILL GO WHERE YOU WAN ME TO GO
I WILL BE WHO YOU WANT ME TO BE
(ANYTHING FOR YOU)
WHEN YOU ASK ME I WILL GO
YOU SHOW THE WAY BEFORE ME
IN YOUR WORD I FIND THE TRUTH
YOU LEAD ME ON THIS JOURNEY
BRIDGE:
THOSE WHO TRUST IN YOU
EVERY PRAISING YOU
WILL FIND THEIR STRENGTH RENEWED
THEY'RE GONNA MAKE IT HAPPEN
I WILL TRUST IN YOU
NEVER STOP PRAISING YOU
WILL FIND MY STRENGTH RENEWED
I'M GONNA MAKE IT
MAKE IT HAPPEN
---
cool song.. LoLx.. learnt that song during choir prac.. very groovy .. very hip.. very praisey(??) .. aniwae.. i went to choir prac.. felt quite proud of myself =X.. cuz mummy told me i shld be studying and not go out.. den i told her.. every friday only mahz. i believe if i honour God with my time.. He will honour me with results =D..
aniwae.. it was during choir prac.. i felt that joy of the lord upon me.. i was smiling thoughout when i was practising that song .. indeed the joy of the Lord is my strength.. previously.. when i was waiting outside the cafe.. i was doing my chem tys.. i felt like i could not finish my revision on time.. but after choir prac.. i felt my strength renewed.. my mindset renewed.. i believe i can do all things through CHRIST who strengthens me.God is faithful and merciful...
im gonna visualise my desire .. im gonna confess it and MAKE IT HAPPEN... faith is a process.. it is also an action.. let me declare my faith THROUGH THAT SONG..
im happy.. nothing can stands against my way.. for if God is for us.. who can be against us
tribulations/persecutions .. a moulding period..
God is more interested in our CHARACTER than our comfort
=D
PTL
aniwae.. rcvd a msg that sis monica wants to meet me .. i wonder what i did was wrong =/.. hMmMmMMMMMMMMm
nvm lah.. LoLx.. scoldings are good .. mould your attitute
w i t h . l o v e
8:57 AM
Friday, October 15, 2004
Take the quiz: "Which beverage are you?"

Coca-Cola
Take the quiz: "What type of attitude problem do you have? (pics)"

Your Sarcastic....Like me
This is supposed to be the lowest form of humor...But i think its the best because its mean and funny. Besides like me you probably cant help it anymore. Here's a phrase for you...
Take the quiz: "WHAT RELIGION BESTS SUITS YOU?"

Holy Roller
Jumping, dancing, praising and speaking in tongues are just some of the many things you do to honor your god. If you meet one of the un-saved, you pray for them. You are kind, caring and full of Christ's love. Perhaps a bit obsessive, but at least you're true to your faith. PRAISE THE LORD!
Take the quiz: "What Angel Are You?"

Sky Angel
You are the Sky Angel.You are calm, peaceful and serene.It can take an eternity to make you angry, but you can be very distructive on a whim.You can be slow to make friends, but you will stick by somone through thick and thin, and won't betray them, like the night.You like blues and whites, pastely colours.You are also atracted to birds, as they share your domain.
Take the quiz: "What kind of fairie are you ?(girlz only)"

You are an angel not a fairie !
You are a kind genorous soul who isn't close to a fairie your to sweet.You enjoy making people happy because it probabily makes you happy>
w i t h . l o v e
11:43 AM
Thursday, October 14, 2004
sorry to my friends ..
becuz of that homo sapien tagging nonsense on my tagboard..
some of your names had been used...
but i know that they are not the real you
i've checked their ip add
one using singnet , the other using starhub
either there are two people or the same person using different connections..
w i t h . l o v e
6:38 PM
sometimes i do wonder why people find pleasure in impersonating others..
i wonder is it becuz of their low self esteem that they are suffering from an identity crisis
impersonating others do requires some skills
such as the way the other person acts , talks and the way the other person carry himself/herself
however , such cases are rare..
how nice to meet one..
w i t h . l o v e
5:57 PM
awww.. the teachers are so sweet *note the present tense*
LoLx..
aniwae.. i teared when mrs liau was sharing her speech with us..
she is definately one of the best teachers i've ever met.. her patience and her tender loving care surpasses the rest of the teachers.. her belief in us makes me wan to spur on .. to get great results for her subject.. which is Amath
of cuz.. the rest of the teachers like mrs jalil , mdm ho , mdm nora , mr chandra , mdm sawana , mdm huang and ms haslinda.. they are simply the best.. not to forget ms chithra , ms chen and mr cheong.. somehow they all made up my secondary school life to be more bearable.. although at times they might seem too demanding.. but nevertheless , their care for us is real
unlike SOME teachers =X
great grad day i had today..
w i t h . l o v e
1:46 PM
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
tml's grad day
i've cut my hair real short
=D
w i t h . l o v e
6:59 PM
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
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my teacher gave us 20 sets of math papers to do.. ranging from chs , ngee ann , naval base.. blah blah blah
A1 .. im coming
w i t h . l o v e
7:09 PM
im pretty pissed off..
after slogging for 4 years.. ever since i had taken up leadership position when im in sec two.. i've got a pathetic B3 for my CCA.. not even an A2 .. what's this? my time seemed wasted .. i shld have joined band back then.. i felt like i've been living in a lie for 4 years.. my seniors have been telling me how easy it is to get A1 if you join an uniformed group.. well.. how contradicting huhx..
blehx..
aniwae.. im goin to the first 3 mths pre-u course.. so i wun lose out when i go jc after o lvl results were released.. that innova jc principal came and had a talk with us.. the school building was originally to be purple.. BUT THE PRINCIPAL HATE PURPLE.. so yeah.. u get it.. i was attracted to the campus wide wireless connection..
it's not bad lah..
so heck.. IJC my choice.. *well.. the pioneers get to decide on the uniform colour* i will try to convince everyone to get lavender =X
w i t h . l o v e
6:29 PM
Monday, October 11, 2004
apparently.. someone takes joy in talking to himself/herself in my tagboard
apparently .. that someone is suffering from identity crisis ..
as that someone nid to use my name to rebut back at himself/herself
how amusing..
i enjoys seeing people making a fool out of themselves
i alwayz try to correct them
but.. it all depends if they wan to be corrected
nice nice..
provided free entertainment for me
dear whoever .. please.. continue your little act..
amuse me with all you can =D
w i t h . l o v e
5:43 PM
Sunday, October 10, 2004
i have not been studying much this week
WASTED ONE WEEK
now im panicking..
w i t h . l o v e
10:28 PM
You Are The Peace
You are the peace
That guards my heart
My help in times of needs
You are the Hope
That leads me on
And brings me to my knees
For there i find you waiting
And there i find release
So with all my heart i'll worship
And unto you i sing
For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
Father we worship and adore You
Father we long to see your face
For you alone deserve all glory
For you alone deserve all praise
Father we love you
And we worship you this day
--
felt a deep tangible presence of God while singing that song on stage.. i had a vision.. that i juz tapped into God's presence.. entering the holiest of holy .. and his presence was so strong .. that touch me so much.. and there i found peace .. it's so peaceful .. i found all my stress and burden being lifted up .. indeed .. God said that Cast all your Cares upon me.. i did.. so i did.. His yolk is light ..
actually i wanted to share God's words during cellgroup.. but i dun dare =X .. so i share here horx
i felt God speaking to me through this verse
Trust in the Lord with All your heart
And lean not on your own understanding
In all your ways acknowledge Him
and He shall direct your path
after what i went through.. i realised that in the first place i should not lean on my own understanding.. indeed God's ways are higher than our ways .. God's thoughts are higher than our thoughts.. Trust in the Lord ..and HE shall direct your path.. i know my future is in the Hands of the Lord .. i know i will not worry for i know that he will place me somewhere where i could shine for Him..to glorify His wonderful name.. to be a living testimony..
all i felt so glad.. really so glad.. during this period of time.. i really drifted so far away from God .. but now .. im beginning to tap into His presence again.. this joy cannot be simply describe by words .. you have to go through it .. to understand it.. THE JOY OF THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH..
--
aniwae.. when i went to church .. i was pretty sleepy.. cuz of the lack of sleep the day before.. *@Jul: blehx.. because of what you said abt them getting to me.. i cant go to slp..IT'S YOUR FAULT =x*.. but when i stepped into the church audi.. i felt energetic and awake o.0.. that is the presence of God .. my cough is getting worse.. but.. i shall believe in God's healing.. but still.. i am able to serve Him.. i cant wait for O lvl to come and go .. cuz that's when i WILL be FREE .. den i got so much time to serve God to help out.. actually..now.. i long for the days where i can serve Him in all i can .. but now.. im not as free ..but I will use my results to glorify Him de.. yup.. i will..
i saw him this sat.. haha.. didnt really feel that heart thumping thing animore.. perhaps this crush is ending .. LoLx.. but i saw somebody.. he looks erm.. how to sae.. =X..better dont lah.. focus on the Lord.. it is more worth it..
dum dee dum.. im off to study ..
w i t h . l o v e
10:50 AM
Saturday, October 09, 2004
the whole story starts showing a priest.. walking around the sea of dead bodies.. *which was quite funni LoLx*.. this was set in the 1600s.. everybody died during the massacre except the priest.. the scene switches to 1949- Eygpt .. post- WWII .. showing Father Merrin , or rather Mr Merrin , he was a priest and is an archeologist , having a conversation with someone.. and yada yada .. he was asked to join in the dig at some part of South Africa . apparently a church was being unrecovered . the building was around 1500 years old and it had been buried once it was built.the most interesting thing was that how can there be a church dating 1500 years old in south africa when christianity had not even been spread to there . *shall skip this.. cuz it's boring and not scary .. * a younger priest was sent to assist him .. *the young priest quite cute .. too bad in the end he died* the best part of the movie was nearing the end.. which makes the whole movie a bit draggy lor.. and the twist was abit expected .. although the scences before dont quite match it lahz.. but aniwae.. since i saw the trailer so i sort of know what's gonna happen.. and yeah.. nearing the end.. Father Merrin found his faith .. or rather.. had his faith restored.. and he was having an encounter with devil and he tried to drive away the devil from the woman. beneath the church , there's a statue of Lucifer himself.. and it was said that that was the exact spot which Lucifer has , apparently , fallen.
doesnt seem too scary to me now.. but well.. it has to do with one's belief too.. if you dont believe in evil or whatever.. you will definately pass that movie off as some crap stuff.. but i dont.. and i totally believe that indeed evil DO exist.. however .. God is far more powerful den Satan.. *obvious hor*.. however .. evil exist in form of lies.. the devil has come to kill , to steal and to destroy .. but God has not given us the spirit of fear .. though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death , i will fear no evil. I nid to guard my mind .. so i wont think so much and scare myself unneccessarily .
however.. once in a while.. i enjoy a good scare.. and this is by far.. the onli scary movie that managed to spook me
can use that movie as an evangelical tool .. *maybe*
however i do admit.. i was so scared that i slept with my parents yesterday ..
LoLx
i thank God for my brother .. if not.. probably i wont go home yesterday ..i felt so relieved when i saw him waiting at the bus stop .. so much so that i can put up with his amuse.. blehx.. as usual.. he laughed at me ..
next time i am to watch an equally scary movie at night.. i would probably drag my brother along .. or someone living in the same blk as me.. =X
w i t h . l o v e
8:13 AM
in the end.. i went to watch The Exorcist with someone who's scared of horror movies *alreadi felt very guilty*
at first.. im still laughing at the show *as usual*
come to the last time .. im terrified too
so .. add two girls who's terrified..
plus an almost to midnight horror movie
aint a pretty sight..
i was so spooked that i sms-ed my brother when the show was about to end.. and ask him to come and fetch me at the bus stop
he asked why
i almost wanted to sae.. the neighbourhood isnt not same.. but i spoke the truth =X .. i told him i was scared
now.. to think.. this is the FIRST ever horror movie show i've watched that spooked me and cause me to sleep fitfully
i slept at 12 - 1 .. i woke up at 2.. den i slept again.. i woke up at 4 .. and i slept and woke up NOW
ahhhh.. the images were so vivid in my mind..
i couldnt stop thinking about that adorable woman *yeah right*
that devil-possessed woman
the show reminded me of some incidences..
spooky!
i think i will get over it.. pray more ..
will do a review later
w i t h . l o v e
8:02 AM
Friday, October 08, 2004
*whines*
i wan to watch THE EXORCIST
but i dun wan to compel someone to watch it with me cuz she dun like horror movie
=~
i felt so guilty
=~
w i t h . l o v e
1:44 PM
Thursday, October 07, 2004
L1R5 - 26
Good bye to three months JC
Good bye to SAJC
w i t h . l o v e
5:18 PM
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
i cried becuz im too angry
not becuz of my physics marks
the marking was too ridiculous..
i couldnt help it but i started to shout and scream at that marker..
i totally lost it..
39.7 for Physics..
HOW GREAT
i think im stressed up..
cuz i alwayz feel so slpy and tired..
when i MAKE sure i had ample rest..
6 hrs a day is alreadi too much time wasted on slping..
my body should really accustomed to it ..
im alreadi very generous in giving it 6 hrs of rest each day..
GOD..I NID YOUR STRENGTH
w i t h . l o v e
4:34 PM
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
i forgot this very important announcement =X
this blog is officially on hiatus *now it's for real*
the only way you guyz could get to me is by smsing or call..
BUT
i wun be replying to my sms-es as i would a) switch it off during my intensive study time b) or i wun bother to ..
AND
dun try to call me either using hse or handphone
CUZ i wun pick up calls..
UNLESS
you are either dinah *forecast* or aries *study hours* or millie *prayer time* or bryan *prayer focus* or sis bao lian or gabrielle or ning
or .. it's a very serious situation like you're commiting suicide and u wish to talk to me before you die or u nid someone professional *like me* to talk you out of your suicidal tendency..
IF NOT
den i am very sorry to tell you that.. the probability of me replying your sms-es is almost zero during my study time
here's my new schedule.. in case you are looking for me urgently , u could try after these times
5/10 -> 3:30pm - 9pm
6/10 -> 3pm - 10pm
7/10 -> 3pm - 6 pm
8/10 -> 2pm - 10pm
10/10 -> 1pm - 10pm
11/10 -> 3pm - 10pm
12/10 -> 3pm - 10 pm
13/10 -> 3pm - 10 pm
15/10 -> 10am - 6 pm
17/10 -> 1pm - 10 pm
18/10 -> 10 am - 7 pm
19/10 -> 10 am - 7pm
22/10 -> 10 am - 7 pm
24/10 -> 1pm - 10 pm
27/10 -> 10am - 7 pm
28/10 -> 10 am - 6 pm
and.. i dun think there's a nid to contact me during the time im having o lvls..
=X sorry for doing this disappearing act.. but..it's for my own good =X
and while im at this..
ALL THE BEST TO THE REST OF THE PEEPS HAVING EOY AND O/N/A LVL
w i t h . l o v e
2:56 PM
it is infuriating when people doubt your ability constantly
our clz physics results was so bad.. that onli 10 passed.. which compared to mid year.. there's onli 2 failures.. and our class' physics was strong.. there must be some conspiracy.. when the setter and marker were both not our clz teacher but the other two one.. and.. our teacher cant even get to see our paper!!!!!! what is this? the worst thing a passing comment from the high up.. asking our class to drop physics so as not to bring down the overall ranking in O lvl!
aniwae.. here's my results.. it's bad..
chem: C6
poa: C5
emath: C5
amath: F9
and becuz of wat that person said.. the whole class gonna prove her wrong.. DIST FOR PHYSICS!!!
time to continue my intensive study programme
w i t h . l o v e
2:30 PM
Sunday, October 03, 2004
The Emotional IQ Test
How People-Smart Are You?
elaine, your Emotional IQ is 125.
This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Tickle's Emotional IQ test. But your Emotional IQ score is much more than just a number: it's an indicator of success.
Research has shown that people with high emotional intelligence scores — not necessarily those with the highest IQ scores — tend to be the most valued and productive employees and have the longest and happiest romantic relationships.
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LoLx .. is that true? felt the presence of God when Rev Albert juz went up to the stage and talked.. it's a presence that i've never experienced before.. i cant comprehend it.. but it's something that i'll treasure alot.. had a heart to heart talk in the group today.. felt really released.. felt that really.. we are being so open to each other.. up to a point that we are really transparent.. nothing hiding in us.. i believe that this will be the first step... and im really gonna change..for the better.. felt the Lord speaking to me through various medium.. i finally understand .. i noe that i've being straying away.. but i will come back.. and i must come back.. experiences can make someone grow older.. more mature..i dun wan to be juz one person.. i wan to be someone who can help others.. be edifying.. someone who can do great works for the kingdom of God.. what Rev Albert said that really touched me was.. God sent His son to die for us.. What are we doing? really.. Jesus laid down His life for us when yet we are still sinners.. why are we not doing anithing to make his laying down of his life worth it? shouldnt we take time and serve with all that we can in the kingdom of God? if we think that we can be double minded .. be friends with God during weekends and be friends with the world during weekdays.. we are very wrong.. Love one another as I have loved you.. isnt that what Jesus had done for us? there's no greater love than to lay down one's life for his/her friends.. isnt that we are suppose to do? why are we being lured by worldly desires? we are made up of flesh and spirit.. our flesh is yearning.. our spirit isnt.. shldnt we follow the spirit and not to be so carnal?
i nid to renew my mind.. but i duno how.. i used to tell myself that.. but that's an excuse.. if we have a willing heart.. we will do whatever it takes to change our attitudes.. to renew our mind.. to change our mindset.. i've been touched.. but im not gonna let it go like what i usually do.. after a while .. it will eventually fades off.. but what im gonna do now is to keep it .. to know God in a brand new way.. although i may not understand His ways sometimes.. but i do noe that whatever He does..it is for my own good.. my future is in the hands of the Lord in which i trust.. that's not juz a spoken word.. that's heartfelt decision
where else can i place my life den in Christ Jesus?
i love all my angels *my cg members..my dearies.. my dear dear anna*
they are the friends that stand by me alwayz.. encouraging me.. help me in my walk with God.. although those things might seem insignificant to them.. i wan to let them noe that that were the things that truely touched me..
w i t h . l o v e
1:40 AM
someone wasnt at church today..
seems quite weird
felt that the atmosphere was really different..
maybe.. not so much laughter?
*shrugs*
w i t h . l o v e
1:18 AM
Friday, October 01, 2004
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=D
there .. im satisfied
w i t h . l o v e
8:29 PM
guess what? i din go to school today.. im surprised that my mum even let me to skip school.. blehx.. i told her that there's onli 3 impt lessons today.. which is physics and humans.. i dont even bother about chinese.. aniwae.. if sch wanna charge me with truant .. i probably wun care .. cuz .. i can imagine the number of people who skipped sch today.. in my clz at least.. that's gonna get the principal to investigate..
well.. i've got a plan.. actually a schedule.. a focus study schedule.. i've got the idea from the intensive chinese mock exams + focus study.. oh yeah.. i am graduating in OCT 14.. *countdown* 13 more days =D
here's it:
1/10 : Physics : 11am - 7pm
2/10 : Physics : 10am - 12 noon ; church ; 8pm - 10pm
3/10 : Physics : 1pm - 7pm
4/10 : Physics : 5pm - 7pm
= 20 hrs for physics *i do hope that's enuff*
5/10 : Chem : 3pm - 7pm
6/10 : Chem : 3pm - 7pm
7/10 : Chem : 3pm - 7pm
8/10 : Chem : 2pm - 7pm
9/10 : Chem : 10 am - 12 noon ; church ; 8pm - 10 pm
= 21 hrs for chemistry *i do hope that's enuff too*
10/10 : Amath : 1pm - 7pm
11/10 : Amath : 5pm - 7pm
12/10 : Amath : 3pm - 7pm
13/10 : Amath : 2pm - 7pm
14/10 : GRADUATION DAY! *i dunno how long it's gonna take.*
15/10 : Amath : 11am - 7pm
16/10 : Amath : 10 am - 12 noon ; church ; 8pm - 10 pm
= 29 hrs for amath*if that's not enuff.. im gonna find time somehow*
17/10 : Emath : 1pm - 7pm
18/10 : Emath : 11am - 7pm
19/10 : Emath : 11am - 7pm
20/10 : Chemistry *mite hav to go back to sch*
21/10 : Chemistry Prac
= 22 hrs for emath * i do think that's enuff*
22/10 : accounts : 11am - 7pm
23/10 : accounts : 10am - 12 noon ; church ; 11pm - 2 am
24/10 : accounts : 1pm - 7pm
25/10 : physics*mite have to go to sch*
26/10 : Physics Prac
27/10 : accounts : 11am - 7pm
= 27 hrs for accounts
28/10: humans
29/10: humans
30/10: chi
31/10: chi
1 / 11: O lvl chi
and there goes the entire O lvl exams
i do hope this help .. if not.. i can get some divine guidance from my friends.. LoLx
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w i t h . l o v e
8:52 AM