Tuesday, November 30, 2004
i've screwed up the ftp thingie..
my site wun be moving soon..
going swimming with my darling later!
heh! we're gonna get sun tan!!!!
muahahahahahahhaha
to think that i can do all these when im sick..
hehe... not bad huh.
w i t h . l o v e
10:32 AM
Monday, November 29, 2004
有多久没见你 以为你在那里
原来就住在我心底 陪伴着我的呼吸
有多远的距离 以为闻不到你的气息
谁知道你背影这么长 回头就看到你
过去让它过去 来不及 从头喜欢你
白云 缠绕着蓝天 如果不能够永远走在一起
也至少给我们怀念的勇气 拥抱的权利
好让你明白 我心动 的痕迹
总是想再见你 还试着打探你 消息
原来你就住在我的身体
守护我的回忆
--
touching song
i poked myself accidentally again
this time..
it is really very painful!!
w i t h . l o v e
8:54 PM
suddenly i regretted not goin for PAE
i regretted not applying for 1st 3 mth
blehx..
bumming ard isnt good
i shld study my brother's A lvl book
THANK GOD my bro went to jc
w i t h . l o v e
4:24 PM
I NID A DIGICAM!
-rants-
aniwae.. it seems that im more busy than when i was a student
eversince last paper ended.. i went out with my friend .. until late at night
the next day got church .. so i reached home around 12+
on sunday i went to make up cell and go down town.. reached home at 12+
monday got chalet
tues reached home at 5+ and i went slping
wed i went to serve and i reached home ard 10+
thurs got bible seminar i went home at 1+
fri got prom .. so i reached home at 1+
sat i got church again i reached home at 1+
sun i went for service 4,5,6 and then i went out *AGAIN* and reached home ard 9+ - 10+
today .. i am going out later *AGAIN*
i nid a day to slp 24 hrs man..
im so tired..
haha.. maybe i shld get a job too..
so i wun go out so often..
my mum was like complaining.. she din see me ard for so long
LOLX
w i t h . l o v e
11:52 AM
Saturday, November 27, 2004
the groupie! me , alene , hui peng , ning , jaz and gabbie.. 
w i t h . l o v e
12:50 AM
*drums roll* my bestie , my darling and me .. 
w i t h . l o v e
12:48 AM
this is the best prom ever *ehx.. only my 1st prom lahz*
filled with emotions that just cannot be described by words
im gonna miss you guyz..
awwwww...
it was all cheery and happy when we first stepped into the ballroom..
all the peeps were taking photos
but Gab's cam died on her.. so we got no photos..
but we took with others
yuwei and i went absolutely wild during the dance period
hehx..
it's all fun and excitement.
until the leaving part
it's all teary and hugging
went ard hugging people and wishing them all the best
all of them are taller than me .. so it's so difficult to hug them *LoLx*
but it's really difficult to say goodbye
some i known for 4 years..
some even close to 7 years
they will be missed
w i t h . l o v e
12:26 AM
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
got this from sis estella's blog..
Once there were three trees on a hill in the woods. They were discussing their hopes and dreams. When the first tree said, "Someday, I hope to be a treasure chest. I could be filled with gold, silver and precious gems and be decorated with intricate carvings. Everyone would see my beauty." The second tree said, "Someday, I will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of other world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull." Finally, the third tree said, "I want to grow to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People will see me on top of the hill and look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God and how close to them I am reaching. I will be the greatest tree of all time, and people will always remember me."
After a few years of praying that their dreams would come true, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. One came to the first tree and said, "This looks like a strong tree, I think I should be able to sell the wood to a carpenter," and he began cutting it down. The tree was happy, because he knew that the carpenter would make him into a treasure chest. At the second tree, one of the other woodsmen said, "This looks like a strong tree. I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The second tree was happy, because he knew he was on his way to becoming mighty ship.When the woodsmen came upon the third tree, the tree was frightened, because it knew that, if it were cut down, its dreams would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree, so I'll take this one," and he cut it down.
When the first tree arrived at the carpenter's, he was made into a feed box for animals, placed in a barn and filled with hay. This was not at all what he had prayed for.The second tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end. The third tree was cut into large pieces and left alone in the dark.The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams.
Then one day, a man and woman came to the barn. She gave birth, and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box that was made from the first tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but this manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.
Years later, a group of men got in the fishing boat made from the second tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose, and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the men safe.The men woke the sleeping man, and he stood and said, "Peace," and the storm stopped. At this time, the tree knew that it had carried the King of Kings in its boat.
Finally, someone came and got the third tree. It was carried through the streets, and the crowd mocked the man who was carrying it.Finally, the man was nailed to the tree and raised in the air to die at the top of a hill. When Sunday came, the tree came to realize that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as was possible, because Jesus had been crucified on it.
The moral of this story is that; when things don't seem to be going your way, always know that God has a plan for you. If you place your trust in Him, He will give you great gifts. Each of the trees got what they wanted, just not in the way they had imagined. We don't always know what God's plans are for us. We just know that His ways are not our ways, but His ways are always best
w i t h . l o v e
11:54 AM
i dont think i will be goin any first 3 mth course ..
i think i will be mentally drained .. i wan to rest!!!
aniwae.. here's what i wan to do with my life
if im able.. i wud choose SAJC , PJC or IJC
if that's not where God wan to place me..
den.. i will go where He wants me to go..
if it is poly.. then i wud take law and management or digital media design..
being a lawyer must be cool =X ..
preparing for Os and finishing it seriously drained all my energy..
haha.. i seriously dunno what i wan in life anymore..
so i think i wud pray more and seek God for His plans for me
w i t h . l o v e
11:31 AM
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
updates updates!!
haha.. din get to go out afterall .. was too tired and i've got a splitting headache.. funny .. im like the only one to go clz chalet and not touch any alcohol *see.. im such a good girl*
but i had fun watching them drink =X and getting drunk =X .. they brought all sorts of liquor *rolled eyes*
upon reaching the chalet .. we started out with our own activities.. we walked for a whole 1/2 hr.. before deciding to get bikes and blades .. we rent overnight and it was cool =D
we started BBQing at 7.. the guyz *gary and gang* sure took a long time to get it started.. so clara , liang jin and me went to cycle first.. the night was so cooling.. the breeze was so nice .. we came back after a while and started to eat.. laughing and talking.. makes me wonder if we would be alwayz having a gathering even after we reach our twenties and thirties..
midnight cycling was cool~
the roads were so dark .. haha.. but we were teaching liyun how to ride .. we reached a slope and stop there.. i was so shagged .. i juz lie down and enjoy the night view... the guyz went to grab a drink all the way back at cheers.. so left li yun and I fending for ourselves in the dark ..haha
we wanted to catch midnight movie *The Shutter* after then go down the beach to tell ghost stories..but.. haha.. too shagged liao =X.. we went back ard 2+ and this time .. Alvin started the fire *it took him a few mins??* .. hahaha....
i tried to blade unsuccessfully.. haha.. the whole place was filled with my screams =X .. i fell a couple of times.. it was bad ok .. haha.. but i enjoyed it very much.. haha
i told them i wanted to eat sotong.. but then .. i went to slp .. haha.. i was slping alone lor.. that stupid leong han .. came in dunno when and make me slp in such a confined space *rolled eyes*.. thank God Gary din fell or else he sure squashed me to death =X
and the whole thing is juz so fun.. but it's like .. words cant describe fully how fun it was??
haha..
cant go clara's party's .. that's a bummer.. blehx..
i dropped dead the min right after i came home..
w i t h . l o v e
10:23 PM
woah.. i juz came back from clz chalet..
haha.. i went yesterday.. came back today.. but it was fun
i went cycling with jason , raymond and liyun at 12 midnight .. after that we sat at some place and started to talk .. LoLx
i din get a tan..
i forgot to bring my swimming costume
and i had to share bed with leong han!!!! blehx.. he juz took up all the space lor
but clz chalet was overall nice and fun..
enjoy the times with my clz =D
so yeah..
im too shagged to blog any further
i am goin out later on
dang...
im lethargic
w i t h . l o v e
12:36 PM
Monday, November 22, 2004
heh.. sorry for not updating yesterday =X
haha.. alright.. i shall blog abt sat first alright??
sat::
met jian mei and yuwei at ctrl station before heading towards berth 14.. haha.. im so glad they came ^_^ . aniwae.. svc was great as usual.. but something quite unexpected happened.. which left me quite speechless and dot dot.. well.. when pastor said.. lay hands on your brothers and sisters.. between a brother and a sister.. they shld only like hold hands lah.. but out of nowhere .. *actually beside me only* .. not my cellgroup de brother .. he just swung his arms over me.. and started to pray.. i was like o.O!?!?!?! .. i was getting ready to hold hands and he like that.. so i abit dot dot.. so i awkwardly place my hands on his back.. but since it's over .. it's over.. next time i wun sit beside unknown people again =X..
hahaha..
today went to make up cell before meeting yuwei at orchard.. bro bing ren suan-ed me lor ..but nevermind.. since he got such a cute dog at hm =X .. but the dog also quite ke lian lah.. the dog's name is ben-dan -.-''''''''''''''''''' .. but the dog is so so so so so so cute.. it's a cross breed between jack russell and schnauzer..
yeah and i BOUGHT MY PROM DRESS
like finally..
haha.. so yeah.. gotta blog till here
am goin to class chalet tml
so i think .. i wun be blogging tml?
hehe..
so long..
have a nice week ahead
w i t h . l o v e
12:35 AM
Saturday, November 20, 2004
i accidentally poked myself with a rusty nail
i think im gonna die soon =(
weird things start to happen everytime juz a few days before the exams or after exams
-.-!
w i t h . l o v e
8:55 AM
i got a new url ::
http://sunsetx.freeprohost.com
the url doesnt sound very exciting
gonna find another redirecting url
im gonna whip up one layout in a mth time
so yeah..
juz wait..
i will cont to update here
until i have successfully move over
so long
w i t h . l o v e
1:08 AM
Friday, November 19, 2004
IT'S OVER
SAY HELLO TO TOTAL FREEDOM
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHH
=X
haha..
alright.. im being a little neurotic here..
alright.. i got 2 new friends comin for svc
haha
gonna be a full fledged evangelist now
haha..
asking more people to come
hiak hiak
w i t h . l o v e
9:53 PM
Praise the Lord.. im feeling better now
last paper ending at 5.45
im too excited
mite be goin to swim or catch a movie
didnt tell my mum
i noe she's gonna stop me since i juz recovered slightly
haha
im not gonna care
i mean
IT'S OVER(not)
countdown to end of Os : 7 hrs 45 mins
*beams*
w i t h . l o v e
10:07 AM
Thursday, November 18, 2004
advice from doctor ::
(1) . Tk porridge only
(2) . Drink water sparingly
o.O
i went for accounts paper
bad choice
cuz .. i was feeling real bad.. having the medicine but i cant eat them
i juz went to slp after 1 hr of doing the paper
the invigilator WAS so KIND to tap on my table
and asked ever so KINDLY whether i had finish my paper
i dont bother to reply her
no energy le still reply her stupid question
took taxi to sch juz now
the cabby mistook me as some sec 1 kid
under normal circumstances , i would clearly explain im not
but this time.. i , too , ignored that cabby
guess that i am not too friendly when im sick
still feeling like crap
3 more papers
God .. i nid your strength
It doesnt help to noe that i have done badly for my history
i chose Nazi.. and for the first question.. i can only get 4-5 m
im going to be so devastated =~
Basically , i went to take the paper today cuz i wan to finish what i've started
i don't wan to give up juz like that , i guess , it's a miracle that i can hold on so long ..
juz wanna thank God for His strength
when i am weak , He is strong
God , i nid you , evermore , for this last race..
Im gonna finish the race soon
God , be with me .
He is Jehova Rohi , God , my Shepherd
He will guide me through
w i t h . l o v e
8:19 PM
had amath paper juz now
one of the worst papers i have taken
i was feeling so bad =(
i am contemplating whether shld i tk my accounts paper
arghhhhh
went to see the doc
the doc told me not to eat my medicine until my exams over
cuz the medicine would cause drowsiness..
then i cannot take injection
cuz it will cause drowsiness too
but the feeling is excruciating =~
shld i go for acct?
=~
w i t h . l o v e
11:30 AM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
i am dying..
had fever and stomach flu
at the rate im going.. i mite even puke my last week's dinner out
God.....HELP ME
i still got 5 more papers
accounts and amath tml
ppl seeing this..
it will helps if you pray for my health ..
thx alot
w i t h . l o v e
8:05 PM
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
as much as i would like to think positively
juz like what i had been doing all these while
thinking that will would do better than my prelim no matter how much i've screwed up
i couldnt help worrying
as much as i said to God each time the paper ended
that i lift up everything into His hands
i couldnt stop thinking about it
Nazi Germany really came out
is tt a vision from GOD???
as much as i dont want to complain about how much i've screwed up all my papers
i juz did..
and i hope by saying it out
it will go away
and i will not THINK ABOUT IT AGAIN
God .. tk it away okie?
tml's physics..
im not prepared
T_T
i think .. i shall pray and ask God..
hope that His divine vision will come to me again
w i t h . l o v e
5:18 PM
i had a terrible dream .. i dreamt that i was late for my History exam .. and i dreamt that Germany came out ..and i dreamt that i got an AB on my cert for my Combined Humans...
i bind that dream in Jesus' Name =D
after which i muttered some prayers .. *drifted between the conscious and unconscious state*
and i had another dream
i dreamt that i got A1 for Chinese *jeeeeezZzzZZzz*
i didnt bind that dream =D
haha..
gotta go and pray and study
Exam will start at 2pm
w i t h . l o v e
7:50 AM
Monday, November 15, 2004
[edit]
i might be moving to here ..
the thing is .. I MIGHT ..
will keep you all updated
[edit]
some prank caller called my handphone at 5:30am
zZz...
why prank caller alwayz like to dial my number?
esp those prank callers who noe my name..
i dislike people giving my number to other people without asking me for permission
zZz
w i t h . l o v e
9:10 AM
Sunday, November 14, 2004
im feeling so lethargic .. i do hope i will get back all my energy by two days' time so i can really concentrate on my papers.. i certainly do not wish to have a repeat of what happen in prelims and O lvl social studies' paper.. i was so tired that i decided not to do the last two source based questions.. haha.. i cant believe i had the audacity to do so .. but still .. it wasnt a very good testimony ..I will not *never again* rely on my own strength
i had been thinking about what Pastor had preached yesterday.. our unique calling .. the sole purpose that we had been brought to the earth.. We are all called by God.. to do something.. but our primary calling is just to fellowship with God .. God loves each and everyone of us..
" For God so love the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life " Jn 3:16
i mean.. God wants us to fellowship with Him.. He is calling us , by OUR NAMES , everyday .. to go home and fellowship with Him .. juz like how the father long for the prodigal son to come home .. Our sins are FORGIVEN .. through the Blood that Jesus , who so loves us . had shed for us 2000 years ago.. this really struck me in my heart .. Quiet time is not just plainly coming before God with your prayer list .. It's about talking to God .. Spirit to Spirit
One day .. my life on this earth has ended .. i wants to come before Jesus .. and when Jesus ask me , " Have you done the things I had asked you to do," i would like to reply , " Yes Lord , I did what you asked me to do. I had tried my best. " I dont want to have any regrets of not fulfilling my calling .. i want , at the end of my lifetime on this earth , God to tell me , " Good and Faithful Servant . " that is all that i need.
God is faithful at all times .. i stumble at times .. why? becus i am not sure about my calling
2 Pet 1:10 " Thefore, brethren, be even more diligent to make your call and election SURE, for if you do these things you will never stumble."
The hour of visitation is precious .. i wan to be so sensitive to the holy spirit ... to let God lead my way .. for who can i trust except My Maker?
Everything is lifted up to His hands.. i will not worry about anything .. I will cast all my cares upon Him .. He knows my desires .. He knows what i need and He will give what that is best to me .]
Jesus said His yolk is easy and His burden is light .
I will ask and keep on asking .. perserverance is often what i lack .. but i shall now build upon it ..
"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you."
"Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you."
No matter what the result i will get next year , be it i will go to poly or jc or anything , i will accept it ..i will go .. for it is what the Lord has called me to go .. to follow Him where He will lead me .. everything is in His Hands
And Lord , in everything i do , giving all glory unto you
w i t h . l o v e
12:11 PM
svc was powerful .. Pastor Ulf talked about our calling .. can really sense the presence of the holy spirit.. and i felt the holy spirit talking to me.. but i shall not share here.. =X
was in the rain for an hr i think =~ .. boohoo! .. somemore i wore my new shirt .. den was drenched in the rain.. haiz..but haha..was glad that my favourite worship leader was leading =X..
haha.. aniwae.. i saw somebody which i shall not mention..haha
JESUS WONDERFUL NAME
I WILL SEEK TO BRING YOUR NAME GLORY
I WILL SEEK TO BRING YOUR NAME HONOR
I WILL SEEK TO MAGNIFY YOUR NAME
IN EVERYTHING I DO
TO GIVE MY LIFE COMPLETELY UNTO YOU
JESUS , JESUS , JESUS
WONDERFUL NAME
JESUS , JESUS
MOST EXALTED NAME
I WILL COME BEFORE YOUR THRONE JESUS
I WILL KNEEL DOWN AT YOUR FEET IN WORSHIP
I WILL BOW BEFORE YOUR HOLY THRONE
IN EVERYTHING I DO
GIVING ALL THE GLORY UNTO YOU
--
I SEE THE LORD
I SEE THE LORD
SEATED ON THE THRONE EXALTED
AND THE TRAIN OF HIS ROBE
FILLS THE TEMPLE WITH GLO-RY
FOR THE WHOLE EARTH IS FILLED
THE WHOLE EARTH IS FILLED
THE WHOLE EARTH IS FILLED
WITH YOUR GLORY
HOLY, HOLY , HOLY , HOLY
HOLY IS THE LORD
HOLY, HOLY , HOLY , HOLY
HOLY IS THE LORD OF LORDS
w i t h . l o v e
2:01 AM
Friday, November 12, 2004
i love swimming .. LoLx
it was fun until it started to rain =~
boohoo!!
going town with mummy later on..
shop shop .. see see.. haha .. looking out for my prom dress bahz
haha..
not yet started studying my chem and phy
big OOPS
i think .. chem shld have no prob.. but phy.. im still not quite clear about the temperature and light chapter..
blehx..
i wan A1 for chem.. B3 for phy
and i dun care what i get for Accounts..
juz a pass
but in any case ..God's grace is sufficient for me
im sure i'll have the strength to burn the midnight oil
I am weak but He is strong
Eccl 2:26 -" For God gives wisdom and knowledge and joy to a man who is good in His sight"
I shall ask wisdom and knowledge from God ..
God is good all the time .. He answers prayers..
indeed .. the past few papers were managable becuz i have His strength and knowledge
He took away my fear , 2 tim 1:7 " For God has not given us a spirit of fear , but of power and of love and of a sound mind ."
In everything that i do Lord , i seek to glorify your Name
w i t h . l o v e
3:05 PM
Listening to : Ge Qian - Jay
boo!
haha.. going swimming later with my dear .. im behaving as though Os over ..LoLx.. it's 7 more days to freedom..=D
aniwae.. tml is church's big day. i had this crazy idea of queuing up at 9am.. but i doubt i would really do it.. probably gonna go at noon or something.. can do amath there while waitin too =D
alright.. to the visitor at my tagboard.. thank you for the wonderful act by yourself *obviously*..
i decided not to comment abt anithing since there's a fine line between opinions and judgement ..
and oh yeah.. Nun is usually for Catholics..
not christians
that a point to note yeah
and of cuz.. have a nice day Alex
---
Lyric ::
周杰伦 - 搁浅
久未放晴的天空 依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚 风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援 我拉着线复习你给的温柔
暴晒在一旁的寂寞 笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我 我只能永远读着对白
读着我给你的伤害 我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在 我睁开双眼 看着空白
忘记你对我的期待 读完了依赖 我很快就离开
w i t h . l o v e
9:06 AM
Thursday, November 11, 2004
i do weird things during examination period
sudden urge(s)::
to catch a movie * in the wee hours??*
prank call somebody?
go to 7-11
scream at the top of my voice
do hmk *-.-!*
seriously.. im gonna get my life back after Os...
SUN TANNING!!!
w i t h . l o v e
2:27 AM
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
i saw this really cute skirt @ samuel and kevin..
haha.. that's gonna be my next target
juz bought two more shirts
actually i only wanted to buy a handphone pouch
in the end ..
=D
haha.. i shld be studying
not shopping
*guilty look*
w i t h . l o v e
5:35 PM
im bored
i shld be studying
but im not
*smacks myself*
let me see.. i have tml to study , fri to study , sun to study and mon to study for the rest of my 8 papers o.O..
thurs i will be going for prayer meeting *i cant miss this you noe ;)*
sat is big day.. i think i will be studying if i will to go to SIS to queue up at 9 am .. but it seems abit too early since the service will start at 7:30pm =X .. but well.. knowing my church members .. they would go even earlier =X .. *i think*.. im still not quite sure whether im serving for choir .. hmm.. i think that depends whether i am goin to choir prac i guess..
let me review my study progress ::
Amath :: well.. i nid to do all questions in TYS to really get at least a B.. so erm.. since i have alreadi done p1 .. so i think .. it is 60% done
Physics :: Oh God! I nid your divine wisdom 20%
Chemistry :: well.. *note to myself:: ask my brother to summarise every chapters for me* .. 30%
Accounts :: 0% =D*why didnt i drop it??*
History :: it's humans for goodness's sake! i will secure an A . 90% done
and so u see.. i won't rely on my own strength. I will draw strength from God. i mean... it's so impossible to finish all my revision @ the rate im going. with man it is impossible but with God all things are possible .. amen??
w i t h . l o v e
1:38 AM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Listening to : The Potter's Hand (Hillsong)
" I'm captured by your holy calling , set me apart , i know You're drawing me to Yourself , Lead me Lord I pray "
Didnt really study today .. not intentionally of cuz.. i had a terrible headache .. so i took some medicine and went to sleep.. now feeling better alreadi..
aniwae , i received a sms from sis Baolian today.. encourage me to read book of Hebrews .. although i've alreadi finished the new testament.. but a good book is worth reading many times
Heb 10:30 " For we know Him who said " Vengeance is Mine, i will repay," says the Lord. And again, "The Lord will judge His people."
many a times , unknowingly or knowingly , i have judged people according to what i perceive to be right , i have forgotten that i am , too , not perfect .
However , it was written in John 8:7 " He who is without sin among you, let him throw a stone at her first."
Luke 6:42 "Or how can you say to your brother, 'Brother, let me remove the speck that is in your eye,' when you yourself do not see the plank hat is in your own eye? Hypocrite! First remove the plank from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove thespeck that is in your brother's eye."
Listening to : God is Great (Hillsong)
" Glory to the faithful One , Jesus Christ God's Son. "
The book of Hebrew talks about faith.
So what is faith? Heb 11:1 " Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen"
we are in the race of faith . Indeed , when it is the departure of my time , i would like say as what Paul had said , 2 Tim 4:7 , " I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. "
I am, too, a human . I am, too, have my ups and downs. I am, too, had been tempted to leave the world of holiness and back to this deceitful world . But im glad to say , even though i've stumbled , im still in church , i've still chosen God in the end.
Forsaking
All
I
Trust in
Him
everyday is a fight with Satan. Every single day we face trials and tribulations . But Christ said , " Be of good cheer , for I have overcome the world."
If God can brings you to it , He can brings you through it.
I will trust in Him . My studies , my family's salvation and my life.
Here I am to worship - Darlene Zschech
Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made
This heart adore you
Hope of a life spent with you
So here i am to worship
Here i am to bow down
Here i am to say that You're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me
King of all days
Oh so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly You came to the Earth you created
All for Love's Sake became poor
I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sins upon the Cross
Call upon the name of the Lord
And be saved
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Once i've read in someone's blog , her friend commented that how fake it was to tear during service , be it during worship or when pastor prayed for the people .
when im still an unbeliever , i too , think it is fake for christians to cry in what they called God's presence. However , once you have experienced it , you will know the Almighty God do exist and in His presence , where He begins to minister to you , to all of your needs , you felt His loving presence , you then , will too cry in His presence.
It is an experience where one could not simply just relate to one another by words. One has to experience it to know it.
I am touched becuz i know .. Jehovah Shammah is with me .
w i t h . l o v e
5:43 PM
Monday, November 08, 2004
finally!!!!
i got my own camera phone *geez.. finally!!!*
haha.. im happy..
i took it from my Dad.. he juz bought it yesterday night !!!
i was trying to do my emath when he put that phone in front of me ..
given my character.. i straight away took it and snap away =D
and tada.. it became mine =D
after that.. i cant concentrate on my math.
so i snapped pics of myself ..*like duh!*
aniwae.. emath was easier den prelims.
haha.. hope for A..
shall pray abt it..
tt's all i think..
8 days of break before taking the rest of my 8 papers
w i t h . l o v e
1:17 PM
my new handphone! finally a camera phone =D 
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1:15 PM
Sunday, November 07, 2004
im at aries's hse cuz i cant go online at home =~
something's wrong with my modem..
blehx..aniwae..i got sun burnt too =)
cuz my skin's starting to turn red and painful
tml's emath exam..
i reckon it's gonna be very difficult..
amath exam too
i guess i shld really practise..
but i still start yet o.O
yesterday service was amazing
pastor preached about worship part 2
and he prayed for all the choir members and all the musicians..
indeed.. we are the first ones to draw down the presence of God ..
we are so so so honoured to share the same stage as pastor..
to grab the anointing of God..
indeed we have to be so sensitive to the holy spirit
to flow in one accord..
that makes me want to seek God even more
moreover we are on all the christian network in asia
more than 1 billion of people are watching our services everyweek..
we nid to draw down the presence of God even more
aniwae.. sang a new song yesterday
it's written by BROTHER MARK and BROTHER KC
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One
I hear the cry of a broken generation
Can you hear the sound of a world in need?
These troubled times are the ones we live in
The hope of Christ is what we plead
I see our Saviour , the risen Lord
The blood He's shed has brought us life
No other way , no other solution
The only answer
To be one with Christ
Chorus ::
Take me to the place
Where the Spirit of God is
Holy Ghost m enpower me
Run with the gospel
I'll carry revival
The love of Christ
Will set you free
Bridge::
Ho oh oh oh
Ho oh oh oh
Ho oh oh oh
Ho oh oh oh
One with Jesus
One with my Lord
One with Jesus
One with my Lord
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i will make it a point to at least pray 1 hr a day..
the holy spirit will only come after that 1 hr
whr the focus on the world has slowly faded and in spirit i will be able to tap into God's presence
i think that what's i really need..
no other things can replace
" Seek First the Kingdom of God and all things shall be added unto you "
indeed.. we come to God with our own prayer list .. we rush through our quiet time as we go down the prayer list .. but God has His own Prayer List too..
The Lord's Prayer
Our Father in Heaven
Hallowed be Your name
Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as it is in Heaven
the first five lines of the Lord's prayer talks about the prayer list of God, shouldnt we pray His prayer first?
To worship God in spirit and in truth .. that's what all of us , christians , ought to do.We dont worship worship but we worship God . It has to come from our heart.
" Give to the Lord the glory due His name
Bring an offering, and come before Him
Oh, worship the Lord in the beauty of Holiness"
1 chr 16:29
i hope this bless u as much as it has bless me
w i t h . l o v e
4:36 PM
Saturday, November 06, 2004
listening to ::
L-O-V-E
by Nat King Cole
L is for the way you look at me,
O is for the only one I see,
V is very very extraordinary,
E is even more than anyone that you adore and
Love is all that I can give to you,
Love is more than just a game for two,
Two in love can make it ,
Take my heart and please don't break it,
Love was made for me and you.
L is for the way you look at me,
O is for the only one I see,
V is very very extraordinary,
E is even more than anyone that you adore and
Love is all that I can give to you,
Love is more than just a game for two,
Two in love can make it,
Take my heart and please don't break it,
Love was made for me and you.
Love was made for me and you.
Love was made for me and you.
w i t h . l o v e
11:21 AM
my desktop picture =X 
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9:24 AM
Friday, November 05, 2004
hehe.. i juz reached home
went swimming with gab juz now..
she swam .. i was learning how to swim
feel pretty proud of my own achievements..
haha.. got a tan =D
gab got burnt
but we pretty much share the same stuff
amath paper was so easy
when i was doing it .. i was scolding my sch teachers for setting the sch paper until so difficult like that
considering i didnt study for amath
i pretty much could do most of the questions..
until im tired and then i juz rest =D
haha.. but i think.. i will pass
cuz got God's grace mahz..
w i t h . l o v e
5:57 PM
Thursday, November 04, 2004
got this deja vu feeling..
somehow i feel.. the evil old hags in cambridge are not gonna let us off easily..
they are gonna scruntinize every single paper i've done to find out mistakes so they can minus my marks.. with their sinister laughter and that eagle-like eyes.. im so dead
=(
on the other hand.. i couldnt get the phrase " speed of thinking is often confused with intelligence" out of my mind.. that sounds so screwed up to me.. i mean.. i alwayz have more than enuff time for all my papers.. excluding amath of cuz.. doesnt that mean im stupid *pout*.. maybe i am..
but i think.. God is kind and loving .. His grace is sufficient for me.. and for the evil old hags.. they will be touched by the grace of God to give me a decent grade.. which is a distinction..
sometimes .. i think i think too much..
aniwae.. my dad dont allow me to attend my friend's birthday party.. i dun see what's the big deal.. it's juz over at msia and im gonna stay there overnight.. what's the big deal about msia being unsafe? if that's the case i dun see my fellow msian clzmates getting robbed or whatever... im not having enuff freedom.. i deserved more freedom!!!!!! moreover it's after Os.. i dun see what's the big deal.. =(
w i t h . l o v e
1:14 PM
i couldnt stop worrying about my emath paper 1
i know that i cannot do anithing about it now..
but still i cant stop worrying..
and that is bad
w i t h . l o v e
10:59 AM
i was practising emath yesterday..
to find out tt i couldnt solve simple questions
that multiplication of decimal numbers..
im screwed...
i pray God really helps me..
i really wan a distinction!!!
w i t h . l o v e
6:19 AM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Listening to : David Tao - Ai Hen Jian Dan
忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你 真的很简单
social studies was quite easy =D
Praise the Lord.. and i focus alot on Switzerland..so im glad it came out =D
w i t h . l o v e
12:30 PM
Monday, November 01, 2004
Listening to : Maroon 5 - She will be loved
i dun mind spending everyday.~~
supposed to blog this yesterday.. but .. i reached home too late and i had to study =D
aniwae.. i went for prayer meeting yesterday.. despite being unprepared for my exam and all.. but i felt that the Lord wanted me to go .. and i went.. cuz i wan to walk in total obedience ..
and well.. that really blesses me alot.. i dwelled in the presence of God.. not wanting to leave..
i noe God is alwayz there with me.. He is Jehovah Shammah..He is with me when im havin my exam.. i can feel Him.. i noe i will not worry about my chi aniwae.. for i noe it is in His hands..
Delight yourself in the Lord and He shall give you the desires of your heart..
" If any of you lack wisdom .. ask it from God. He shall give it to us generously without finding fault" James..
have been reading the word of God and memorising them .. these are the promises that God gave to us..
His grace is sufficient.
i will not worry for my exam.. so i shall not miss ani cellgroup meeting.. if i Honour God with my time.. He will surely honour me.. and how can i live without His daily bread =D
i have a renewed mind.. renewed strength
Those who hope in the Lord shall soar with wings like eagle.. they shall run and be not weary .. they shall walk and not faint..
we noe all things work together for good to those who love God..
=D
hope this verses bless you as much as it has bless me =D
w i t h . l o v e
5:51 PM